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actually so good so far. i relate to it a lot in the sense of mexican american liminality. it’s for the weird girl black sheep’s in the family who feels so deeply chicano but not white. feelings not enough on either side of your life. even if living in america means patriotism you’ll never really feel it. you yearn for the country you never met, but can never feel either. who am i if not lost? in between?

just started and it’s interesting. i wonder how alexie is going to take this character and utilize his experiences as a misfit into the novel. however, i was hooked immediately by the first chapter, and i think alexie has that quality to be so blunt and honest in a way that makes you uncomfortable but because it’s relatable in some sense. reading this for my misfits rebels and queer class and so far im excited.

him learning more about her is also us learning more about her, but we know she does not go into marriage with these negative intentions, it’s simply just her role she needs to follow but he of course doesn’t see that. also my favorite part so far is antoinette and christophine at her house saying she needs to LEAVE HIM. LIKE YES TELL HER. and then she prescribes her witchcraft to try.

however, i am a rochester hater so i completely despise his outlook on her and the servants. although i think his pov was what i needed to see how she really is and how the characters are. i also wanted to see how their relationship was before thornsfield and we are getting that in this part. their marriage is devoid of love, but i think there’s a sense of care and excitement to learn about each other.

okay sooo i’m halfway done with part 2 and im finally liking it, it doesn’t feel unbearable anymore. i hate that it’s mr rochesters pov though, like omg. i think why i enjoy it more in this section stems from seeing Antoinette in a new pov, how she acts and who she is, it’s given me a new pov to see her in obviously.

in this progress people perform outwardly in a way that comments on this capitalist enterprise of america.

this was so so interesting. i couldn’t pinpoint why i felt so uncomfortable reading it as first. i think this idea of people in pursuit of things bigger then them (faye=stardom; tod/homer/…=faye; harry=stardom; ms jennings=call house) was scary, alarming, and human. it was a complete commentary on how humanity seeks these things bigger than life and what they will do to get there.

but i think this idea of her not really leaning into religion and questioning it is so interesting, and contrasts jane, even if they had the same education. i want to dive into that more.

i am not yet fascinated with her prose, and i don’t really feel myself capturing these pictures that she paints of the characters and scenery. however one thing i appreciate is the parallels between antoinette and jane. they almost have similar growing up stories: dead parents, only child, rich but not, goes to a all girls religious school. some similar some not aspects.

i started this book and the idea excited me so much. i kind of forgot about bertha mason, and in JE she’s kind of brushed off to the side, so this concept sounds really fun. however as i just begun pt 2, i don’t find myself getting into it as much. i don’t know i feel jaded reading it. i don’t know if i just can’t understand rhys writing but her writing seems so difficult.

i’m gonna rate it a 3.7

i think the most sad part about reading this book is how these things don’t seem far off and that i can imagine them occurring. it’s chilling and frightening. i hate reading.

there was so much grapple about the protagonist: i hate calling her offred. she wasn’t very likeable and the other characters weren’t either, but i also think that’s the point as well. the feminists, the neutrals, and the nons i could empathize to certain degrees, but atwood makes them all with their faults. they are all doing what they think is best to survive in this gov.

well that was insane. 9/7 that ending made me so sad it was so abrupt, and we do not know her fate. the historical notes pissed me off too because all of a sudden a man is talking??? like please get off the pages. please stop talking. made me think about how we can look at history and undermine those experiences.

started reading on 8/26 and it’s so crazy. it’s for my women writers class. i think im flatlining my understanding of the novel but it already feels so deep to me, i just don’t know how to express that in class. offred is such a character that desires and aspires to live her life as she wants it to, but this govt system has brainwashed her and other women to repress these feelings. she’s a rebel in disguise.

and redeemable acts by the caption to restore fake trust and spread fake information. news is propaganda for the capitol. everything is shown in a different light to make it seem better, but everyone knows deeply it’s not true. so scary how that mirrors today. this book was gut wrenching and my heart aches for haymitch.

like we really got to see the underpinnings of the capitol and victor realities. his POV in this book was so shattering. he was so full of love and emotion in a way that makes you think he can persevere but the capitol comes and represses those thoughts. it really made me think about how propaganda and govt can mirror real life and that’s scary. collin’s specially choose those scenes and chapters of cover ups

oh my god so much torture. everything kept getting worse and worse in this book. when i think of present haymitch it makes me want to cry so so bad. like this book was such a true testament to how he became the person he is, and i don’t think anything could ever fix it. the fact that he stayed alive for so many more reapings made me so sorry guys sick.

the peacekeeper part was so so bad, it made me sick. OMG and sejanus’s end in 12 made me cry, i loved sejanus. and i hate that snow backstabbed him. lucy gray and sejanus i am so sorry guys, my two favorite characters. the capitol people make me sick.

however, snow i liked/hated. i thought he might have been redeemable but he really just wasn’t. his pov was so intense and crazy. after reading SOTR i genuinely cannot believe he turned out the way he did. i can but cant. he turned so evil, but at the same time i knew what he was capable of and so did he, he just wanted to hide it. once he became a peacekeeper i was like oh my god i will never forgive you.

i loved lucy so much, i have so much reverence for her. i fully supported her in every aspect of the book. and i choose to believe she’s alive somewhere, but i don’t know. i really liked the song she made and how we have to figure out what her ending fate is. her persona carried the book, and i had such deep empathy for her.

okay so i finished the book but i forgot to give a full review. i honestly reallyy loved the book but i think it should have been divided in two: it was sooo long. i enjoyed it more at certain points, and its longevity made it hard to stay intrigued. collin’s is such a writer though and her character building of snow and lucy made me love love this book.

haymitch seems so full of love and liveliness, compared to when we first meet him, so how does he end up isolated and bitter? i want to know but at the same time i don’t.

nonetheless, even though i’m still hoping for haymitchs triumph, i already know crazy shit will happen. because in the og books he’s alone, but how did he become that way? like does the capitol discover his plan and rebel endeavors so they punish him by killing his family and lenore dove? and make him mentor and watch the demise of district 12 tributes? this is what i’m assuming happens.

also i really like the community of the newcomers, compared to katniss’s pov there’s this sense of hope in this novel, like that these characters can actually do something for their freedom. there’s this fiery and electric energy between the characters, and their familiarity brings me excitement, and then i remember their fates, so i automatically get shut down. but im really interested in effie and plutarch.

i keep forgetting we already know haymitch, and younger self gives me so much hope for panem and his future, but then i remember that this is not exactly the case. i am so intrigued on how beetees and plutarchs plan is not going to work, i really want it to, but in the back of my mind i know something will happen to fuck it up.

i’m about halfway done and so much has happened. i really like being in the perspective of district youth. snows capitol youth pov actually killed me and i cannot recover. i really enjoy haymitch’s perspective. his personal accounts of everything remind me of katniss, but then i get reminded that he is literally her mentor.

it’s insane how they feel they either have to succumb to capitol pressures, or suffer in capitol punishment instead. i read these books like it’s real life.

i just finished the first 2 chapters and i am shattered. that reaping scene was so intense. everything that occurred between the families
tributes and peacekeepers was fucking insane. and when sickle called the chance boy a body i was livid. the fact that plutarch used family farewell too as currency for last moments was SICKENING. the mccoy family and lenore’s moments, i couldn’t. but then haymitchs family