Lia Espiritu > Recent Status Updates

~epilogue~
she made it back Home!! their connection weaved in and out like… roots tangled together. they began to grow apart but it lead them right back together.
when she sent him the voice memo i deadass burst into tears 🥲 he was willing to live with it, but her love for him won
the history, cameo ring, groupchat, THE PLANTS, phone calls, CECES PLOTTING, and gardenias.

who are we to fight the alchemy?

and finally Eva is free. it fills my heart that she began “fighting for herself”, being unafraid of hiding her ailments, letting go of Cursed and the idea of that love, and truly writing her roots down.
did i start to cry when Shane and her saw each other again? yeah. it felt like losing [redacted] all over again, knowing you have to let that person go to begin to live again. they will always be #misfits

no and lowkey should’ve known that this would be the case. he DOES care for his other kids, so much so that when he finally hit Ty back he found out he needed to leave to RI ASAP. didn’t have time to let Eva know, was on the next plane out.

and this is gonna trigger those old wounds to the max, esp with how important this brunch is 😭 FAWKKKK

very fond of the connection Audre and Shane have, building their own little weird relationship. i’m afraid that because he’s falling into a family dynamic he’s going to forget about his OTHER kids, ex. Ty. who needs the fuck out of him right now and i pray he doesn’t get shot in the situation he’s in. just because he’s stable doesn’t mean he gets to break promises to the kids he had before.

“you know you’re the turtle right?”

LIKE HE HAD ANY CHOICE BUT TO BE ANYTHING ELSE GOODBYE

chapter 21 you did the thing! the long awaited reunion with no secrets and a shit ton of love. them both getting to love each other out loud, whole heartedly. FINALLY TELLING EACH OTHER I LOVE YOU AFTER 15 YEARS.
they so seamlessly blended into each other. can’t tell where one ends and the other begins FOCK!!!

soul crushing.
i love love love that the story shifts to other people’s pov, not just the MCs. reading Lizette’s pov was infuriating, she truly believes she didn’t do a damn thing wrong. she barely acknowledges the jealousy that got Shane locked up and got her daughter sent away. she tries to resolve that ache by raising other little girls but that will never right the wrong, ugh it’s so effing good yall!!

SENT HIM TO PRISON??????

oh fawk 🥲 talk about some romeo and juliet both of them could’ve god damn died. Eva had been ignoring phone calls for a week ig her mom had to do something but she would’ve never found out where Eva was if it wasn’t for Shane. her mom was prolly trying to “protect her” from Shane’s life but girl if she only KNEW.

yall he met her DAUGHTERRR!! wrap it up! 😩
that was so so good but now we’re getting into the reality: where did he go that morning after? after they made promises for life to one another and he vanished? she won’t let her guard all the way down until she KNOWS why he gave her 7 years of bad luck and deep rooted abandonment issues. i have to know his side of the story!

the magic of this book… damn! this is what it feels like for my synapses to connect and to grow actual brain cells in my 20’s?? i feel like i’m being spoken to (i am.)

Cece’s little pov was so cute too, shoutout to Ken for keeping her busy lol. Eva & Audre’s relationship, beautiful. Shane trying everything to make it work keeps my heart pumping!!!

not her trying to **** herself! 😭 yeah it really was that bad. what got me was when she attempted & he was desperately begging her, you can feel the exasperation Shane feels.

also the G & S?? carved into their skin?? this is some dark shit! a gothic love! getting the name “cursed” from what her mom said about their family ughhh i die

“this is how she knew she was as crazy as he was”
DAMN EVA!!! clearly the joker to your harley… he really killed that sun of bitch huh? 😭 i would’ve fucked him too!

you can really feel the intensity of their love for each other in these passages + their actions it’s actually kinda insane. “Shane was her lighthouse” been there girl.

“Grown women knew better than to attach themselves to time bombs. Teenage girls couldn’t wait to be ruined.”

ugh be so fucking fr. like yes! and what if i still feel 17 and can’t get away from that feeling? RAHHH

i love their characterization <3 so wholly individual!
them both writing about each other, getting popular off of their love for one another? straight through the heart. an actual movie adaptation WHERE?! it really might be a bad time to read this but oh how a second chance romance heals the heart. and all the small pieces that never were the same

i think this book might ruin me. i mean that wholeheartedly.
my past follows a similar story to this one, a girl and a boy meeting at a time they needed each other most. my ‘Shane’ has been floating around in my thoughts recently and reading their story is only making the “what if” worse. will it take 15 years to find each other again?

fighting with fear is hard when you’ve only known how to live in it and not outside of it. i’m proud of Chani for choosing to stay, to give them a shot. Gabe <3 forever an icon and northern star

i LOVE that he took on her last name too! their fame will forever be connected & intertwined. it’s a last name they’ll share. Gabe’s article too! it’s a cute homage to all her writing, we finally get to hear him

oh how the mighty fall.
talk about some self sabotage Chani!??!
when you spend your wholeee life looking at the story from your own pov, when it seems like it’s all about you can you imagine how Gabe feels? can you imagine what HE thought in those situations, HIS feelings? he isn’t JUST the celebrity, he’s HUMAN!!!!

i fucking love it here!!!! every loose end gets tied up with a perfect bow, the one thing i wanted to know was what happened on the couch that night. i was confused bc i didn’t understand what Gabe was offering or saying to her. to me it seemed like “oh i know this is unprofesh but you can still hit tho” esp because she was so worried about crossing the line by sleeping w him. but it makes sense now!!

that damn phone call.
ugh that absolutely broke my heart to hear him rehash every moment they had together belligerently drunk 😭 “i CAN read” my illiterate king!!! we know you can read!!! admitting to wanting to call her everytime he drank plsss
he was an absolute mess but he held onto the thought of her. Jacinda answering the phone would’ve made me block him, rehab the next day is a crazy turn around

what a way to blow dinner Chani 😬 when she said she was nervous i understood, this is ur man’s family and the thing he holds dearest. i get it. but damnnn that dinner was bad all around, not just on her end.

the Cozy have a billion copies of her book to sign & and endorsement from Gabe *swoon* that’s soo effing cute! way to show off ur girl <3

one thing i love about good literature is checkov’s gun + a resolution. writer’s don’t bring up anything, even something small, if it doesn’t come back around later. small details become small moments, big confessions, or later realizations and i love it.
after reading her Jam articles, Gabe pretty much takes concepts and directly inputs them into his life. the puzzle. the cider cart. he brought her home.

he ruined it with one word. TWICE. 😭

i don’t know how to interpret his reaction to after she stops him, im confused on what he was trying to do there. she was never secure in his intentions w anything even with them hooking up but fuck!!! i think he was in the same boat too but im so unsure of how he took it. i need an explanation bad!!! ughhh i want to slam the book on the floor

everything was going perfect & dandy…
“baby”

because he knows her name. he knows exactly how to say it. but instead, he calls her “baby”. while i think it was a term of endearment, he felt so close to her that he said it, i 10000% see how that could wake her brain up. the theme of him remembering her name & all that but for him to “forget” in that moment? to seem “common” in that moment? brutal.

oh fuck.
i wish i was able to leave voice memos on these updates because the scream i scrumpt over these last 5 pages… shit. she’s better than me because i would’ve INDEFINITELY let him grind me into oblivion till i forgot my own name???? are we serious??? CHANI BABY WAKE UPPPP!!!! to freak it with your hot ass celebrity crush?! that’s peoples life’s fucking work!!! 1/?

she has the man in the palm of her hand. he read her short story?! in some random literature magazines? oh fuck 😀😭😭
and when he FINALLY makes the move, she fucking jumps out her skin. valid reaction! but then going into kiss him was ROUGH 😭😭😭😭😭 why did i get cringe chills fuckkkk Chani! if i were her i would’ve ran out his mf house

idk how my girl manages to do it drunk off her ass with only jellybeans in her tummy 🙂‍↕️🙏🏽 Gabe said “lock in baby” and she turned UP! she’s so brave for even being there, i’d be scaredd

Ollie is the ultimate cupid and i should’ve seen it sooner, he’s been setting them up past and present. i would too if i wanted my best friend to be happy with the girl he fell for 10 years ago.

all these past chapters prove is that Gabe was in it from day one, he fell for her quick even if his words never say it. it’s all in the looks and way he talks to her <3 ugh it’s everything! while Chani is 100% in the right to question their dynamic, some things are wayyy clear and his feelings are.

oh hell we’re screwed 😭
naming his dog Teddy after her teddy bear, starting to puzzle because of her article, inviting her there to win her back because he read her blog a month ago saying she got DIVORCED. he’s INSANE. in like the best way possible, talk about “to be loved is to be seen”!!! he was gonna wait 6 months post divorce as not to home wreck… we lost the plot Chani. 😭 it’s over.

Chani saw him in the play, like he was the only one in the room! just to walk in on him making out with his “wife” 😀🔫🫲🏽 though their arrangement isn’t real, that wedding ring on her finger is. and while i also know nothing would’ve happened Gabe killed any chance of talking to her in that moment. cause they had never addressed the hurt from those year ago either… UGH!!!

Ollie and that damn private jetttt <3 i knew it was gonna be him waiting at the end of the runway!!! glad to have him back in the present time, and love love love that Chani and him were friends throughout the years! joyful and proud the Ollie came out and got MARRIED to a king named Paul 😭 so so deserved! glad some loose ends got tied up :)