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"then has become now" ooouuuggghhh

"... hirschfeld's behavior may have more to do with his foundational belief that science, once presented, would plead its own case. he had always trusted, for better and for worse, that when faced with scientific effort, even his enemies would see the error of their ways. it wasn't true then and it isn't true now. the argument from science works only on those who care to be changed by it."

god that personal story after all that history is so harrowing, i feel sick

noooo temple grandin dont hype up elon musk and jk youre so iconic aha :(

"Was bleibt mir jetzt? Die Maske abzunehmen. (...) Ich schließe die Augen und spule meinen eigenen Film zurück. Ich sehe die roten Fäden dich sich von meiner Kindheit, über die Jugend, bis in mein Leben als junge Frau ziehen. Alles reiht sich aneinander, ein Ereignis nach dem anderen. Wenn ich alles vorher gewusst hätte, wie wäre mein Leben dann verlaufen?"

oof... youch

i really!!! like the art style of this but the interspersed 2 page handwritten letters are the bane of my existence :/ like i get why theyre there and i could probably just skim them and move on... alas they take me out so bad i keep closing the book everytime they come up 😅

books that make you say "so true fr" every 2 pages

geebo :(

spoiler?


camp damascus name drop?? 👀

"But the worst kind of monster was the burrowing kind. The kind that crawled into you and made a home there. The sort you couldn't name, the sort you couldn't see. The monster that ate you alive from the inside out."

they're matching each others freak alright

oh to be a little guy plagued by gay emotions...

feels bit like forgive your parents everything they've ever done- conversion therapy atp

this is.... so much gayer than the movie....

I'll continue reading this because it does raise interesting points but nah... i just don't think the authors claims are that universal. the exercises so far did nothing for me except annoy me a bit? maybe I'm too autistic for this but obviously i know that people who hurt others probably have been hurt before too? and i just think that sometimes especially family members do shit that is unforgiveable so the sunshine

the queer indispensability part 😭

"Parents who destroy their children's lives, who suck the life out of their children's futures, not only for the sake of maintaining their own illusions but also to zealously expand them into the lives of their own children- such parents can almost be understood from the perspective of obsession. Following the words "Be grateful I raised you" is the implied clause "instead of killing you or leaving you for dead." oof

snare was fucked uuupppp 😬 a modern fairytale of capitalist exploitation, the horrors of misogyny and the oppressive to even incestuous or cannibalistic nature of a toxic nuclear family. my fave so far! but heed content warnings :')

this has little to do with the content but I'm listening to the audiobook and while i get the artistic vision of putting music/noises in the background of some of the poems... oof it's simply too loud and i do find it hard to concentrate on the ones where this is done. It's a short book so it'll be fine but if it were longer I'm pretty sure I wouldn't be able to finish it :/

the description of casual suicidality ough and oof :(

"everything new i encounter(...) is seen through the prism of fear. I constantly question what might go wrong today, tomorrow, next week, in 6 months. what impact will a decision I make now have on the future? what if I say something wrong to someone? (...) what if suddenly I'm found out? if people realize that I'm pretending to be something I'm not? a grown up. a proper person."

ah this actually kind of slaps if I decide to actively read my childhood trauma(?) into it lmao

it's enough slices (=realizations about my identity) 😭

bruh I just visualized myself reading this as a kid and almost tore up 😭

this surely fucketh tenthfold in italian

they had me in the first half ngl :/