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people have "unreadable expressions" a lot in this book

i forgot to update the page i was on that's embarrassing nobody look at me

"i would have chosen to be gay if i could."

lowk

i wasnt expecting to like this as much as i am

"Yadriel turned to the window and pulled out Julian's gray-and-black plaid shirt he'd stashed under his pillow. He rubbed the soft flannel between his fingers. Yadriel closed his eyes and buried his nose in the shirt. As he drifted off to sleep, he breathed in the smell of Julian, but it was already starting to fade." (253)
this relationship has to work aiden please

I PROMISE IM READING THIS IM JUST A REALLY SLOW READER

"there was a long beat, and then, 'why do you have to be so good?' he asked, pained. 'why can't you be selfish, just this once?' i smiled wryly. 'would you have loved me for so long if i wasn't selfless?'"

NO

"my hand went to his hip, the edge of my thumb nestling into the crease between his thigh and inguen, and as the coarse breath slipped from his mouth, there was a gathering in my lower belly. a pulsing of desire, deep and pristine and singular. his lips went to my jaw, my throat, and i was almost dizzy with the need to feel him inside me."
oh my

PLEASEDRERRRRRDE

"'if a hero is someone who will give up love to save the world, then a villain is the reverse. someone who will give up the world to save love.'"

"i begged my mouth to finish the question, to stay awake long enough to hear this new answer, but i was slipping, slipping, slipping, and there, in a grave colder than mars, next to the soul id loved for a hundred lives and lost in every one, we took our final breath beneath the indifferent stars."
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i fear im dragging through this... im only reading it because i have to atp 🫠🫠

read this a couple days ago but never updated it oops

sometimes i think this book kinda sucks. like paz is not as well written as he deserves to be and he and alano have a really scary dependent relationship. nevertheless i genuinely cannot stop reading this it's like consuming all of my thoughts and it's kinda freaking me out but I NEED to finish this

sometimes i think that paz is acting more like what textbooks might describe a depressed person to act like that what an actual depressed person acts like... like i feel like he's the embodiment of how depressed people typically act than a genuine depressed person. but i don't have depression so idrk

"My heart is pounding. 'I'm so honored, I would kill for the chance to play this role.'
'You sort of have,' Orion says. 'Didn't you, Paz?'"
oh i wouldve kms right then and there