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Gay bar confessions but they’ll never call it a gay bar

Universal butch experience… Lazi I’m starting to relate to you. I don’t like this!!! Notebook 5 Chapter 3 is the best yet. Damn Lazi I really understand you.

Ok but Lazi REALLY pmo rn bc she’s mad at Shui Ling for moving on??? bro. You’re the one who broke up with her before youd even DONE ANYTHING. Be like Meng Sheng and Chu Kuang and AT LEAST get together then decide to blow up your life of that person. My god lesbians are DRAMATIC. LAZI IS DRAMATIC. TEAM SHUI LING

Chapter 1 in Notebook 5 made me so annoyed with Lazi. But also proud of her. She spells out EVERYTHING she’s done wrong and how she is frankly the cause of her own isolation. But then comes to the conclusion that she should continue doing it, and that she’s right for it. UGH. It’s so hard to read bc I know I do this exact thing. I see the ways I’ve self sabotaged and dig a deeper hole bc I feel I deserve it

I wish I could tab this book!! #library

There’s a section on page 54 that encapsulates how imposed sexual shame can deeply affect one’s understanding of self - even someone who is self accepting. Lazi feels like a beast, having to hide away while acknowledging that she has done nothing wrong. It’s worded so well. But this section could also be interpreted as what it’s like to be a taboo minority yk.

“Secretly, though, I did sort of enjoy being a fucked up mess. Apart from that, I don’t have a whole lot going on”

Idk if the Shui Ling saga is over after notebooks 1 & 2 but if so… holy lesbian pulp novel like bro just kiss. SIGHHH it’s so emo but I get it I get it. It’s scary

Lesbians are sad

Really good quotes I wanna share at some point

Dear book,

I made one request and you failed! But it’s ok. Bc you give me hints to what the twists are so I don’t have to think too hard 🫰

TJ KLUNE MAKES ME LAUGH. I AM LAUGHING AT A YOUNG ADULT BOOK. Mr Klune you have my heart you make me like YA

Dear book,

I know we have a little less than 100 pages left together but PLZ let this prom moment bc only prom and not some drama that happens during prom. Plz. I need fluff. Pad the read time idc. I need these characters to be happy for a min. Also no parents are crying at 16 y/os going to prom I can confirm

😛

I WILL FINISH 18 PAGES BEFORE I SLEEP #100pageperday

Trying to see if I’m at 50%

Super power boyfs

finished reading this over a month ago lmfao. loved it

Judge, put me under oath. I LOVE BI LMAOO yk what hell yeah yall are funny. Never met and unfunny bi person

Ok I’m obsessed with the idea of being AUDIBLE with an identity as opposed to visible. I love that Zane is talking abt it in the context of being bi bc I talk abt this is lesbian circles too. We love the word lesbian and are LESBIANS. The word is so important

Oh and there’s musical theatre references yessir

“…and that's just something you can't do with a book, excluding, of course, this book, which you spent twenty-six dollars on.”

NO I DIDNT HAHAH I LOVE THE LIBRARY

The foreword and glossary at the beginning are roughly 1/10 of the book, so I’m not exactly 5 pages in.

I’m actually laughing out loud lmao. I saw this book and was like “yes I’ve been wanting to read another collection of essays by a queer man” and this is so unlike anything else! They way Zane talks abt growing up in an accepting household but still being messed up by the larger society hits

“There are two high schools in town, just as there are two Americas. There are men and there are women and one still rules the other in certain pockets of the country, in moments that are not televised. Even when women fight back, they must do it correctly. They must cry the right amount and look pretty but not hot.”

Haven’t been updating my progress whoops

Love this quote:
“The people who believe Maggie Wilken is doing it for money are often the same people who believe women who don't keep themselves pretty will be responsible for losing their men.”

Achilles is so bad at being a woman… why’d you have to mess up in front of Odysseus

Deidameia is fujoshi final boss STOP QUEEN STOP

Um this is Maggie’s 5th chapter… we just finished Lina’s 4th chapter… Sloane still only has 2…. Ms.Taddeo what is this madness

One criticism I do have is that I am nowhere near as invested in Sloane’s story as I am Lina’s and Maggie’s. At this point, we’re on the 4th Maggie chapter and the 3rd Lina chapter but only the 2nd Sloane chapter. And we got WAY more understanding of the other twos stories in their first 2 chapters than we do of Sloane. I know very little of her desire, only her circumstance

Sigh plz Achilles don’t go to Troy and while you’re at it kill your mother

1.) this is a horror book

2.) Roxane Gay’s review of this book was 2 stars 😬 I don’t agree at this point in the book