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Very interesting when it comes to the reference(s) Camus used in his argument. One would not understand fully that particular example he made if one don’t know what happened about the Mount of Olives in the Bible. Spent some time looking into it today.

Sometimes I don’t need to figure out everything, and it’s ok.

“Am I trigger-searching from a place of being on my side or a place of fault-finding? When it is the latter, it is best to abandon the search and move toward invoking self-acceptance, as there will always be triggerings that are unfathomable. The process of self-support needs to trump the healthy urge to “figure it ALL out” at such times.“

„They (Extreme flight types) are obsessively and compulsively driven by the unconscious belief that perfection will make them safe and love-able.“

First time reading Dostoyevsky, about midway through the first story White Nights. Very very long monologue from main character, yet I still find some of it quite poetic in the different ways he used to express the underlying feeling.

Skipping ahead to read Ch.9: Shrinking the Inner Critic.

“I am a human being, not a human doing.”

Stages of Recovering:
1. Acknowledgement & Understanding - of current situation one’s in
2. Shrinking the critic cognitively - crucial before one’s able to enter the emotional stages
3. Grieving of losses - self esteem, safety
4. Address the issue - releasing the armouring; learning to compassionately support oneself
5. Deconstructions of one’s old pain-exacerbating defence practices

我理解不了這部分的沙特⋯⋯
標籤是他者強行賦予的，為什麼順著這個標籤走就是一種自由？難以理解。