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The fact that it took Alex impulsively torpedoeing his career by revealing he vents about the showrunners through fanfiction to get it through your thick skull the dangers of him telling you this kind of shit, April, is...wow.

You are a really self centered person.

I mean, granted, Ron and R.J. don't have any more PR common sense than Alex, considering that...

So Lauren is unflappable in the face of fatphobic comments I see.

Damn. Lauren sounds ten times less immature and insecure than April from that one statement alone. And Alex sounds like a genuinely flawed but decent guy whose meddling results in believable conflict.

I want to read THAT romance instead of this one.

"April was done hiding...it wasn't going to be comfortable."

Girl, it's a convention. If you don't want to be fat-shamed and judged, just stay at home and process your emotions like an adult.

"Marcus's abandonment of her"

Girl, he was TRYING to support you in his own way! Give me a break!

Frankly, I am not rooting for this couple to make it back together. Marcus deserves better in a girlfriend than someone who flies off the handle every time he misreads a social situation.

The whole BAWN thing is a no-win situation. Marcus only really had two options: come clean to April in the beginning or cut ties with her and the Lavineas server completely. Definitely not ask April out on a second date.

Plus, while APRIL might be loyal and try to keep Marcus's secrets, there is still the matter of paparazzi and obsessed fans. It's not like April's fan accounts are a secret or even secure. Any dedicated stalker fan/paparazzi could easily find April's accounts and through that, discover the truth.

That, and April could still slip up and reveal the truth by accident.

April is right in that the way he went about the whole fanfic thing IS a massive violation of trust.

The thing is though, this is coming right on the heels of April getting over being unreasonably mad at Marcus for something he couldn't control.

And frankly, at this point, April comes off as downright toxic.

Normally, I would be okay with this being the third-act breakup point, if Ms. Dade hadn't made it a fucking PATTERN for April to get mad at Marcus's completely understandable slip-ups. Hadn't made it the chief conflict of the fucking book.

Marcus...I don't care how hot you think April is. You deserve a woman who is less insecure, who will not treat you like this. Of any size.

"He'd lied to her".

Geez louise, woman, we just got over the first bit of manufactured conflict over the dad misunderstanding.

And now you're blowing up at him over the fanfic identity thing, even though in the same paragraph you make it clear you understand the whole "Marcus would lose his whole career" thing.

THANK YOU! Finally, April acknowledges that it's toxic of her to expect that Marcus magically intuit shit like this!

That doesn't change the fact, however, that Ms. Dade has used this BS as a plot point TWICE now. TWICE!

Is April supposed to be insecure, or is she supposed to be a grown, confident woman on a journey to better her life?! PICK A LANE, MS. DADE!

YOU CAN'T HAVE BOTH!!!

But sure. It's Marcus's fault for not magically knowing this I guess. Gods damn it!

And now Marcus is feeling guilty for failing to be psychic. Gods damn it I hate this bullshit.

This shit is so toxic. April, you cannot expect Marcus to intuit exactly what you need emotionally in every situation. If you're planning to confront your mom, you need to TELL him that. You're supposed to be in a healthy relationship where you talk about this shit for heaven's sake!

So we ARE punishing Marcus for missing a social cue he couldn't possibly have known about after all, huh? Because he was supposed to psychically intuit that today you were going to confront your mom about her fatphobic BS.

Gods damn it you can't have April be a confident woman on a journey to accepting herself and then have her act this insecure and childish.

I'm glad April has the courage to do this important step with her mother on her own, and accepts that she doesn't actually need a hot guy beside her to do it.

I mean granted, deciding not to communicate with April about it and instead just ASSUMING she needs her dad distracted isn't a good thing, but there's no way he could have known that April was planning on confronting her parents today.

Especially because April ALSO chose not to tell him this.

Oh holy fuck not AGAIN! Does it occur to you, woman, that he's distracting your dad as a way of supporting you?!!

This is the SECOND time that Ms. Dade has used April's insecurities as a way to drive a wedge between the characters.

And it's worse this time because April has now accepted and understood that Marcus is a gym bro! Who talks about exercise because HE does it, not because he expects HER to do it!

I do agree with the idea that forgiveness is not something that's owed, that it has to be earned.

Mayhap they think this because Alex the actor needs to be pegged I guess. But hey, his romance with Lauren is setup for the sequel.

It's amazing how quickly she's gone from disgust to wanting to jump his bones. But frankly I'm all for it.

"In the final season" so Marcus HAS been unwittingly leaking little hints.

I'm betting my butt cheeks the guy leaking hints is Jupiter's actor. He's too much of a comedic character not to have a hidden twist.

Girl, there's trust issues, and then there's what you did. I mean, you said it yourself; Marcus has been nothing but anti-fatphobia in the whole time you've known him. He has been gentlemanly, courteous, and gracious.

Well, aside from him writing that fic as BAWN.

But thank heavens this part of the story is over.

April has finally come to her senses and realized that a guy whose hobbies are exercise-heavy would naturally eat breakfasts full of protein. Thank heavens.

But Marcus writing a fic about the issue kind of feels manipulative, especially considering that he KNOWS April is Ulsie and April doesn't know Marcus =BAWN.

Alex has got a point. Marcus does tend to disassociate from himself and his various identities quite frequently.

Especially because, outside of this one suggestion, there has been zero indication that Marcus wants April to lose weight. He LITERALLY white-knighted her online in front of a fatphobe, then asked her out TWICE, and on neither date did he imply she was ugly because of her fatness, or that she needed to lose weight.

A fully grown, confident woman with a career in STEM, who is moving towards further self-acceptance should not be this touchy when the concept of exercise comes up.

If April were an insecure teenager, or just a younger, more insecure person all around, it would be fine. But it doesn't. It completely detracts from the rest of her characterization.

I don't know. It STILL comes across as insecure, as leaping to conclusions, especially considering how mature and thoughtful her explanation of fatphobia is to the Lavineas shippers.

Marcus is being way too understanding right now. It's insecure behavior, flat-out. Plus, outside the narrative, it contributes to another fatphobic trope of fat people being inherently anti-exercise, a.k.a. "lazy".

And yes, Ms. Dade, fat people often do have fraught relationships with exercise, thanks to fat-shaming.

But fat people, like everyone else, also do exercise for non-weight loss related reasons like: having fun, because it's an opportunity to socialize, mental health benefits, to make their muscles stronger, or even just to wake up in the morning.

Like, the guy probably eats oatmeal, hard-boiled eggs and fruit b/c he's a gym bro, not because he thinks you need to lose weight!

Would he have even asked you out in the first place if he agreed with the fat-shamers? Would he have even responded to that comment thread in the first place?