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“Please! We want to get a divorce!” Lucille’s mind says to God (who is a white rat). “…And so it was done. It felt oddly anticlimactic… I just became absentmindedly aware that we didn’t belong to each other anymore”

This is a pretty good way to describe what depersonalization feels like 🫪

“I feel my soul is bound in pink gauze, itchy, sweaty, it can barely breathe under it all, my warm wet beating heart that is tightly bound… you scorn the pink gauze because you don’t understand that beneath it there is nothing. No warm wet beating heart, nothing.”

This is how I feel about that song that goes “I’m sorry that you have to have a body” like?? you are nothing without your body.

Lucille’s body explains why he has broken up with Lucille’s soul saying “he resents that I, without shame, loves the things he secretly loves… the grease and the porn.” I definitely resonate with the idea of my body feeling like something separate and animal-like from my mind or soul or consciousness or whatever. However, the older I get, the more I feel that “I” am not really separate from my body

“When I lie in bed I am not alone because lying beside me is a dull ache. Like a pet snake measuring if I am too tall to eat.” I love the way this graphic novel reads like an illustrated poem

“IT'S CLEAR TO ME NOW! I DON'T WANNA BE A PROKARYOTE! WANT TO LIVE! I WANT TO BE DIRTY AND UGLY AND A BIT PATHETIC AND
INTERESTING! IWANT TO LIVE A LIFE FULL OF STICKINESS AND STRANGENESS AND GOOD THINGS AND BAD THINGS AND WHAT'S MORE
I AM GOING TO, IT’S INEVITABLE!”

“Fuck! I’m a pervert. I’m a bad person. I’m terrible queer representation.”


This entire story reads like a journal entry and every page is a masterpiece

L: I want to be air.
S: Air?
L: Yeah. I want to be breathed in and out by my friends and absorbed by the trees and recycled through the soil.

I know this book would have hit different for teenaged me

“almost half of her taxes are going to "Defense."

Defense of the assets of the one percent! So that they can make even more money from war profiteering. And what can she do about it?

Stand on the corner hawking copies of Workers World? Go to prison for tax resistance?

At least she'd have the satisfaction of knowing she'd paid for that prison.”

A summary of my annual tax season crisis

Did charity actually do anything to dismantle structural problems? Or did it just entrench them further?

Holly: Did you know that people who earn under 50k give on average 8.4% of their income to charity? While people in our bracket give 2.9%?

Alison: Huh. Really.

“I guess I have this idea that being recognized for doing something well is the same thing as being understood”

I understand you, Tedward, and I don’t like you.

☀️♥️: I want to be happy ! !
I want to love and be loved ! !
I want to feel safe ! !
I want to be someone who didn’t deserve it ! !
I want my life and my body and my soul ! !
I want control of who I am ! !
I want you to stop touching me ! !
I want you to leave me alone ! !

:,) Iykyk

☀️♥️: It’s like... being burnt and taken and swallowed. And dying very quickly. Very fast. Evaporating. You barely know what's happening
and I wanted it so badly but.. It was so good at first but I think something has happened to me. the last few times, I couldn’t eat for days after.
Thinking about it makes me sick. I’m stupid-

The art in this is exquisitely symbolic ❤️‍🩹

🌘🌀: I don’t know what I’m doing, really. I was just trying to survive and I ended up like this.

I’ve been convinced that I will die very soon. I can’t shake the feeling. But it’s been years so “soon” is taking a rather long time, I guess

It’s so clarifying to grow up and learn this feeling is correlated with childhood trauma

I’m obsessed with the dialogue in this book

☀️♥️: I don’t believe in God, Santa, or even Captain Crunch

🌘🌀: The Michelin Man is 100% real though

☀️♥️: Yeah he’s real I’ve seen him

🌘🌀: I saw him driving on the I-90

☀️♥️: He’s butch as hell

🌘🌀: Yeah he’s real taught me how to fuck and drive

☀️♥️: Separately?

🌘🌀: No, he’s a great multitasker

“When human cultures move away from stories filled with wonder for the natural world, we lose our single greatest tool for preserving Earth's ecosystems. If we no longer tell stories about the forces that led to life on Earth, if we no longer stand in awe at the shared, mysterious gift of being alive, then the importance of these teachers is truly forgotten.”

“During pregnancy, the cells of mothers and babies often mix: a mother keeps a few cells from each baby, and a baby keeps some of their mother's cells.“

Newest fun fact: peppers aren’t spicy to birds

“it must be very important to dream, because nearly every mammal (and even some birds and invertebrates, like jumping spiders) experience REM sleep.”

“Air reminds us that we are not separate from the world, but made from it and sustained by it.

“We know through painful experience that freedom is never voluntarily given by the oppressor; it must be demanded by the oppressed.”

“Injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere. We are caught in an inescapable network of mutuality, tied in a single garment of destiny. Whatever affects one directly, affects all indirectly.”

“I want to belong to a village where each person holds the hand of another so no one gets lost in the darkness”

Iove the way this book uses symbols of light and darkness

“Some people are just never gonna see you the way you want to be seen… it’s best to please yourself first, and the ones who love you will get it.”

“[Nature’s] patterns are bigger, longer, wiser than any of us.”

“i can’t stand not to be swallowed whole,
to be sunken into, wrapped in wet walls
& then broken down, & then dissolved
into someone else’s cells. to be craved so hard
i become marrow. stomach lining & tooth.
to be devoured”

Franny Choi, thirst

“these streets weren't paved for tenderness”

Amber Atiya, if my slumlord allowed pets

“When he swings his fist,
duck down and tackle him to
the ground with soft kisses.
When a n*gga calls you a f*ggot,
He’s calling you by his first name. He’s telling you about his-self.
His own fault lines splitting his tongue, toxic and tender.
He’s crying for help from the bottom of the ocean.”

Jay Dodd, When a N*gga Calls You a F*ggot

“how men grow vain and forget to wash the blood from their hands before they hug their daughters”

Julian Randall, Abuela Dice Que Spilled Salt Goes Over the Shoulder

“we had to wash ourselves of home in order to survive”

Julian Randall, Abuela Dice Que Spilled Salt Goes Over the Shoulder

“WHAT IS NARRATIVE IF NOT THE BLOOD / IT CARRIES? WHAT ARE YOU IF NOT THE TRAUMA YOU INHERIT”

George Abraham, Inheritance