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"... i’m crazy or something."

reading this line got me have a nostalgic feeling omg

i'd thought it would be difficult to tell him, to let it out after all these years. it wasn’t. rather than letting it out, i was letting him in.

“love is supposed to be good. it’s supposed to make you better,” i told him, and it felt like ripping a scab off a wound that could never heal. my love made him worse.”

????????Now im fucking nervous bro

i shoved him, because i wanted him to fight me for it. i wanted him to prove that he wanted to touch me because this was real and not because it was easy.

he wanted to drag his pain out into the open and force everyone to look at it. they didn’t want to look at it. they never do.

and then he walked in.
and all i could think was that he was beautiful.

SHUT UPPPPPOOODNXBZ

“what do you know, anyway? you don’t fucking know me.”
“no, i don’t know you, but i recognize it in you anyway. you’re like me.”
“what does that mean?”
“it means i'm someone who shouldn’t be alone right now too.”

"the ability to feel shame at disgraceful behaviour and pride in good behaviour, because without these qualities no individual could achieve anything fine"

me myself...pretty good at feeling shame IF i do something wrong; but as for pride– i gotta stop undervaluing my accomplishments, i still do that sometimes. i learned, that, too is a way of letting ourselves down. so everyone take credit!

"... the reason we love (desire perfection) is precisely because it is the human condition not to be perfect instances of anything. love involves deficiencies and awareness of deficiencies"

can i interpret this as: a relationship to be honest and lasting one should desire perfection with their lover and should not aim perfection via their lover?

is anything ANYTHING? fuck me but mostly fuck you philosophers

"there was no equality of desire"
"the lover would achieve the enjoyment at least of conquest"
"the older man is a 'lover', while the boy is merely an object of the lover's erōs"

patriarchy is so fucked up stupid men diverge themselves into two groups so one can still have another to dominate when they are not home to have the power control over women

my 2nd rant: obviously i'm not an expert on myth studies but this heteronormative ass book pissing me off because how can you not talk about: "they say that phoebus grazed admetus’s cattle, and found shelter in a humble hut. who can’t suit what suited phoebus? lose your pride", apollo domesticating himself and learning to lose his pride behind because of his love for a man??? but what do i know

my first rant: you're telling me zeus calling prometheus out because of his "man-loving ways" is purely about prometheus's parental love for his male children? heterosexual affairs somehow often mentioned but chiron the centaur sacrificing his immortality just like that in exchange for prometheus' freedom isn't an enigma? oh come onnn *boo*

i just realized this is not only a study material for me but also an actual book so i can add it on here. and complain😛

“you made me wait three and half years for you. you can wait a few more hours for me.”

except you didn't fucking wait for him bitch

"being discreet is hard when we are who we are."

“he’s important to you.”
“he’s important to everything,”

“those aren’t the rules i play by.”
“your rules make corpses,” red hood drawled.

well, the greatest thing besides falling asleep in each other’s arms again, knowing that they are finally not alone anymore.

maybe they thought the other had all they ever wanted, when all they ever needed was each other.

"I don't like you," Jungkook starts.
"I—"
"But I've never wanted anyone so badly before."

😃

I could take him.

...in a fight right

“if you divorce me, i’m fucking suing for emotional damage.” 😭❤️

jungkook laughs under his breath. “yeah, well, when you grow up with everyone making you feel bad or telling you what’s wrong with you, you know the things you wish they would say instead.”

“what would you do if i spit into your mouth right now?”
jungkook squeezes his eyes closed, the coil in his stomach worsening ten fold at the suggestion. “why don’t you try it and find out?”

JESUS

“you’re too vulnerable,” andrew muttered when neil shuddered.
“you’re my safety,” neil replied honestly. “you’re my home, andrew. i don’t need to protect myself from you.”
“shut up,” andrew whispered, and kissed him more firmly on the mouth. “shut up, shut up.”

🥹

“you expect me to serve you?”
he does every other night.

well damn

axel excitedly shouts, still holding a blade to kyd’s throat while kyd stays cozy by trying to snuggle against his front.

😭😭😭 GIVE KYDALEX TO MEEE

Since it’s Maximoff Hale—the one in charge, the leader of three families, a guy who can convince the Tri-Force that he’s capable of anything—we’re letting him put himself in more harm’s way than we would anyone else.

moffy i love you ☹️❤️

And he wonders if its a blessing or a cruel joke that someone like Jeongguk has been given to him— so pure and selfless and warm, the personification of someone who doesn’t deserve seeing the horrors surrounding them— wonders about it as his heart thumps loudly in his chest over how unfair it is to crush on this boy who might be ripped away from his hands at any given moment.

🥺

“have you ever wanted to be something else so … so someone would still want you?”