lucas’s Reviews > Giovanni’s Room > Status Update

kell costume is officially underway. got a red blazer off vinted for a fiver, going to collect it today, and then the kell edits (gold thread) will begin. in eleven days time i will be the coolest guy in the city of york. tboy kell maresh is real and he can hurt you

left my meds in england and am. currently at the stage of sertraline withdrawal where i am constantly feeling hazy and lightheaded. which is making concentrating rather challenging. but i must persevere (maybe writing more transgender poetry with thinly-veiled eroticism will fix me) (it will not but i am going to do it anywya)

'somebody, your father or mine, should have told us that not many people have ever died of love. but multitudes have perished, and are perishing every hour - and in the oddest places! - for the lack of it.'
this book is making me all two aware of the incessant desire for human connection lurking deep within me. maybe i shouldve let tom make me a hinge profile after all

currently in france, and am going to take this book out with me tomorrow while visiting art museums and pondering both my queerness and the great melancholy within my heart. for an immersive reading experience (i am already very fond of this novel and think it will cause me great pain)