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aaand maybe thats the point i mean it is called 'real life' which is definitely an important point it was definitely about 'real life' and didnt shy away from topics people struggle to discuss
it was a vulnerable book like ive been saying wallaves pov is very stark
ehhhh id rather give it like 3 and a 1/2 stars but i'll have to round it so whatever not that the rating matters all that much
im js happy this is OVER

so! i finally read (and finished!!!) this book
iiii clearly dont know how to feel about it
it was a fairly easy book to read once i was actually reading it and it posed a lot of interesting questions about life and society in a very personal way
the perspective of wallace is undeniably his and i can appreciate that as well as not understand it just bc we are inherently different

idk if that was the authors choice or actually just how wallace functions lol bc there were some good lines that i liked and related to and understood and felt that they were true to life
but at a point it just felt.. almost overdone and maybe thats me just being different from wallace and not understanding another persons way of thinking or maybe it just feels ever so slightly pretentious iiidk idk

for his character i mean i dont relate to that at all
and i suppose he and miller will puzzle me forever..... both their relationship and them as individuals
he always thinks SO hard about small things in any situation morbidly or just like about life in the grand scheme of things or like his whole identity and it feels like hes never really there like in the moment yk

what the what the hell
ok cute little flashback back before everything happened when they all first met
i... dont understand this book and like i said i was getting bored of it bc i was getting increasingly frustrated at wallace and whatever was happening
from what he said about not caring anymore after something happens and not needing to talk about it makes a lot of sense

everyone is always calling wallace selfish and i never realise that theyre lowkey right until they do so i suppose the perspective is accurate
not that ive ever understood wallace and miller but what was that fight like i got it but also not and its also just frustrating cos they communicate so much yet not at ALL
idk i understood millers feelings but also idrc
im just ready to finish this xx

#what im awfully close to the end now so im actually just gonna finish it (FINALLY)
i like brigit idk who she is but yesss asian girl i knew she wasnt white by how she and wallace were talking/crying together
im just a little.. confused she was saying how hard its been to be the only non white and how she'll always be looked down on and wallace literally relates but he was just like im sorry

and everything is just so.. unfair all the time and i know thats the point but this far into the book maybe i was just wrong for assuming there was gonna be some gratification or messages or whatever idk
like i get that thats also the point that this constant subtle and not so subtle injustice is there all the time that its 'real life' but then what
that also doesnt change the fact that im bored lol

he actually cant catch a break like im sick
idek im getting bored of this book like i said like i was vaguely into it for ages and now im just tryna get it over w LOL
the whole dinner thingggg and him and miller and the stupid lab
maybe i just dont understand wallace sometimes i do but mostly not maybe idk

i feel myself losing interest because im struggling to understand