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Anything you want to forget will come back to you, it will haunt you so vividly that it feels as if you’re going through it all over again, often causing you the same overwhelming and unmanageable feelings as it did the first time; you fear the intensity might kill you and so you fight its return, you resist, but you can’t prevent or shield yourself from the pain that follows and so you are forced to relive it.
— Feb 07, 2026 05:38PM
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.. Earth to earth, your body, too, is of the earth, and I could feel the earth in my legs, how heavy they were and the earth in my abdomen, how heavy it was, it was throbbing restlessly.
— 13 hours, 20 min ago
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The darkness helped me cope. I hid in the darkness, I stepped away from the yellow pools under the streetlights and became invisible under the spiky, naked branches of the tall birches, I walked up to their knobbly trunks, I leaned against them, hugged them and thought they talked and whispered to me:
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I had felt something uncontrollable stir in me, a desire to break for the border, a sense that I contained bombs that might go off if I drank enough, and a great thirst, an irresistible compulsion to drink just enough to make those very bombs explode.
— Feb 07, 2026 05:41PM
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Her fear created me because her fear and imagination go together.
— Feb 07, 2026 05:39PM
