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"Just keep clear she says. You I say, oh me. Stick that in your pipe and smoke it.
You and your holy joes. What they must think she says I don't know. I don't care. The future in the future.
Keep yourself to yourself when they're here. Nobody wants to hear your cheek. Nobody cares.
For that thanks for that I say. Peel the skin off why don't you, rip it from my bone."

"I called your aunt. Your uncle and aunt. Asked them to come.
No.
I want. Somebody here.
You. Do.
Of my own. I'm.
And they said?
He said.
He?
They'd come. Next week.
How long?
What?
How. Long. I.
He didn't say I just want my family with me.
I am.
You are my. Daughter much good that's showing to be now ... Just keep clear she says."

"This wrong doubtful body should not have been mine. Mine was. Not this. Was perfect. Once.
Drag the. I will and sit and drown and drown if the. Come water. Over land. Swallow up. Swallow me down. Drag me in the gullies.
In the pipes please and the drains."

"So afterward pick out of my hair glue strands phlegm bit insides no better than. I shake. Feel that dizzy. Sit but alone. With my vomit.
Behind eyes blunt. What I'd be. Demure. If I could. With handkerchief blot ducts not glands race pump tears out and snot and fear like garlic through the skin.
Out my mouth like a mad thing raving clawing out my eyes.
This wrong doubtful body should not have been mine."

"I'm bad to my mother and I'll never have luck.
Fuck. Fuck that, this, all everything.

It creeps and crawls and. What? They'll grasp their hands and pray.
She pray and whatsit she thinks she sees? Her son has failed her.

Make a run for it. This time. Up up and away.
There's a foul there's a wind where's the air. Catch me. I'm going down the footpath and running from the door. Slamming. Fuck you."

"Your nervous face. Disguise. I can't disguise.
Some ancient thing that catch me make me panic gag. Them. Doing it before my eyes. No.
Announce yourself and hear oh Lord.
Between us chattels us vessels of shame and you,
blue conscious with outstretched hands will be loaded up with all their sins.
And to the wilds they'll send you filled with that."

"She says don't think you can come here with your tantrums. And it's not like you've done a lot.
What?
For us. In the past.

Oh I see what you're at Madam. I see you well, think you'll make up with him. On the deathbed. I know you she says very well you selfish stupid lazy girl. Never bothered here and now. Don't. I'm not impressed. You conniving jealous. Shut your mouth you.
Fucking. I'm just trying. My.
Best."

"So I won't utter a single. No. I will. Do this.
I will do this for you because. I can.

Well I'll leave that to you she says.
Isn't that why you're here.
I am. Spitting.

What was that but? Don't you forget I'm the mother here.
I. Didn't.

You're not the only one. With this. You don't know what it's like for me to see my son and cannot do a single thing.

Yes Mammy. It's hard I know.
So. I go."

"I've a froth the mouth. In my head. What's all that? With her sniping? Now. Suddenly. She's all here mother. She. With scalding prayers.
Am I not here? I. Give me a good punch on my face.
Stop. It's fine now. It's fine now isn't that why you're came? To pick up. Bits and pieces.
Let her do her thing. Name of the father but shhh. Lead us into temptation. That's right. All very well."

"I. Please.
Think what I'll do.
I'll do everything I can I say.
You understand.
Yes I see I see.
She turns. Do you Madam?
What?
Remember I'm the mother here.
Sor.
I see doctor I see very well. Thanks be to Jesus. He gives me his strength. Only he helps me adore all of this.
Oh. And your daughter there of course.
Ah I trained her well.
So I see, so that's it then."