Eva 🌻’s Reviews > Talking at Night > Status Update

« I ruined our chance, she says, again.
I don’t believe in chances Roe, he says. I thought you knew that about me. There is only what happens. What is and what isn’t.
So what happens, she asks him.
What do you think, he asks bac, though he knows her answer, now. »

«  I know it seems like I didn’t choose you, ever, Rosie says, when all I wanted was to choose you. And I’m sorry I never said that to you. Evan if we’re only ever going to be friends, that’s okay, i think, but I just wanted to be able to say it. It’s all I can think about, now ; that you matter, more than anything, to me. And I never even told you. »

« And with everything he has in him, every last good fiber or breath or feeling, he turns and he walks away, from her, from them, from all of it, and he knows, deep down he knows, that it’s finally for the last time. »

« No, I tried to be a nice guy, just your friend, or whatever, but I can’t. I’m sick of waiting, and hoping, and thinking about you all the goddamn time. Not just these past few months. Ever since that bonfire. »

« They eat cereal in the kitchen, just like they did before, when Josh was alive and the snow was falling and they barely knew one another. »

« And is it memory, or is it the soul, and what might a soul look like, if you could touch it, if you could dance with the light and the dark of it. »

« They share a single heartbeat and then he says he’ll never travel the world at this rate, and he steps forward and takes her face in his hands, those rough, mechanic’s hands, and he keeps looking at her like that until she pulls him into her, with her mouth on his, and he tastes, to her, the way he did before. »

« Hé was gay. He’d only just told me. And he’d fallen for you. Obviously. And I just wanted him to be okay. I wanted him to figure that stuff out, first. Before we broke his heart, you know ? And then he died. »

« No Roe. I ended things with Jen, last night. I fucking ended things with the woman who’s stuck with me through depression and my gran dying, and for what ? Because she knows I’m not over someone who doesn’t even want to be with me ? »