audrey’s Reviews > Ander & Santi Were Here > Status Update

I feel like the spark that Santi and I had from the first moment we saw each other, that’s quickly becoming more like the most beautiful lightning storm, is going to…what? We take our chances with distance? We let it die out?

In an instant, we’re running upstairs, the worries earlier today at the back of our minds. There’s only us, here together in a moment that is both beautiful and frightening, for however long the world wants to give us. And we’re going to make the most of it.

I’m with you. Through happiness and destruction.

That sounds nice.
It was. Probably still isn’t a lot of ways. That’s the thing about home, right? When it’s good, it’s really good, mostly. I know I was happy there. But sometimes we happen to fall into the itty-bitty part of it that’s bad. And then once you’re in it, that itty-bitty part becomes much larger. It takes over your whole existence.

I want to do both. I can live a life that’s both complicated and happy. Even if it’s just for a little while. And especially if it means I get the have you. I need that.

"You know, you can tell me. Not that you have to tell me. I don't want you to feel forced about anything, but this whatever-it-is that's obviously got you clenched pretty tightly in is fist—you don't have to hold on to it alone. Okay? So, whether you tell me now or tomorrow or next week or never, I just want you to know that you can."

"It... things. Lots of things. Things that have been so easy to forget about when I get to work with you and spend time going there and back to my house. I was forgetting about what makes my life so complicated. Which is nice, but it's not something I want to forget. And and it's tough when someone else is brought into the mix. Even tougher when I'm reminded why my life is complicated."