kiara ✾ ·˚’s Reviews > Case File Compendium: Bing An Ben (Novel) Vol. 7 > Status Update

“For the longest time, he only felt like a normal person when they were making love. Then he could love, then he could desire, then he could feel the need to be close to someone; then he would press himself against another person, would crave more. But these were words he could no longer say. He hadn’t changed; he’d stayed in place, but He Yu was no longer the same.”

he yu it’s getting harder to defend you

“It’s already been nearly a year, Xie Qingcheng. The dead have turned to ash. New life has finally come. It’s time to let go…

He knew that he would never be able to let go. He could be happy for the birth of a new life, but he was destined to live among the dead forever. He wouldn’t forget He Yu’s past, ever.”

JUST PASS ME A GUN ATP

xqc living 20 years of his life in despair, going blind from grief since he yu was announced dead to blaming himself and losing the sliver of will he had left to live ISTG HE CANNOT CATCH A FUCKING BREAK 🫩

“If my death has become an irreversible fact, I do not wish for the person who treated me best in this world to grieve for me. I would rather he be disappointed in me—rather he spit on my grave—than feel sad and blame himself. That is my only request.”

so meatbun really wants me to fucking kill myself???

“I hereby identify the person who orchestrated the deaths of Xie Ping, Zhou Muying, and my mother, Vivian. It was the vice-executive of the He Group, Lü Zhishu—that is to say, Wei Rong.”

he yu’s family lore goes INSANE bc wdym wei rong has been posing as his biological mother this entire time???

“That willful, death-defying love would probably never return. This was the outcome he’d hoped for all this time. At last he had what he wanted, one weight lifted from his shoulders. He should’ve felt relieved — The last of his warmth had left with He Yu, and now nothing was left.”

hexie divorce era 💔

“Xie Qingcheng. I might never get to be He Yu again. Let me hold my teddy bear one last time, okay? You have to remember how tightly I held you, the same way I’ll remember all the warmth you ever gave me.”

he yu’s dad committing suicide, this cryptic doomed yaoi dialogue, xqc asking to get fucked… this is what whiplash feels like