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Because a life with Joaquin isn't comfortable. It's a life of stress, of watering myself down, burying my needs. Burying me.
And I'd be lying if I said that's what I truly want.
I'm not a good person just because some guy wants to date me, or some rando on the internet loves the way I think. I'm not a bad person just because everyone's decided I'm too much.
I'm just me.
— Apr 18, 2026 12:44AM
And I'd be lying if I said that's what I truly want.
I'm not a good person just because some guy wants to date me, or some rando on the internet loves the way I think. I'm not a bad person just because everyone's decided I'm too much.
I'm just me.
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But I don't want to go back to how things were this morning.
Pining and weak, convincing myself that if Joaquin could just love me, I'd stop feeling so fucking unhinged. Domesticate me, babe-like my whole life would be worthwhile if I had a popular boyfriend, if I could be desired.
What if I don't want that, though?
What if I don't want him?
— Apr 18, 2026 12:44AM
Pining and weak, convincing myself that if Joaquin could just love me, I'd stop feeling so fucking unhinged. Domesticate me, babe-like my whole life would be worthwhile if I had a popular boyfriend, if I could be desired.
What if I don't want that, though?
What if I don't want him?