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“To conceive of myself from the outside was my ruin – the ruin of my happiness. I saw myself as others see me, and I despised myself – not because I had character traits that made me worthy of contempt, but because I saw myself through the eyes of others, and felt the contempt they feel towards me.”
Slacking so hard rn

“If we don’t know who he is, neither did he know who he was. He did his duty without knowing what he’d done. He was guided by what makes the roses bloom and the death of leaves beautiful. Life has no better purpose, nor death a better reward.”
I can’t finish this book this week

“…tomorrow I too will be the one who no longer walks these streets, whom others will vaguely evoke with a ‘What’s become of him?’. And everything I’ve done, everything I’ve felt and everything I’ve lived will amount merely to one less passer-by on the everyday streets of some city or other.”
ABSOLUTE LITERATURE.

“When I think, it’s because I’m drifting; when I dream, it’s because I’m awake. Everything I am is tangled up in myself, such that no part of me knows how to be”
I swear to god I’ll read more over the weekend to make up for the lack of reading during my exam week (I won’t)

“Even while saying that I’m always different, I feel that I’ve always said the same thing; that I resemble myself more than I’d like to admit; that, when the books are balanced, I’ve had neither the joy of winning nor the emotion of losing.”
I want to buy another copy of this book because I love it so much

“No one knew me under the mask of similarity, nor ever knew that I had a mask, because no one knew that there are masked people in the world. No one imagined that at my side there was always another, who was in fact I”
Absolute literature. Half of the things in this book feel ripped straight out of my own head.

“What to do? Isolate the moment like a thing, and be happy now, in the moment we’re feeling happiness, thinking of nothing but what we’re feeling and completely excluding everything else. Trap all thought in our sensation”
Ive been actively avoiding reading this. I’ve been in a horrible slump since February.

“At this very moment, I’m the one who is attentively writing them…I’m the one thinking about all of this, I’m the one feeling my body satisfied and my hands still a bit cold.“ cut off for space
I’ve thought about this almost one for one before. Scary how close this is to my life

“How can I possess with my body, when I don’t even possess my body? How can I possess with my soul, when I don’t possess my soul? How can I understand with my mind, when I don’t understand my mind?”
This is from an earlier part, but I really liked it.

“The value of art is that it takes us away from here.”
Wow page 300