Jadyn Kavanagh’s Reviews > The Night We Met > Status Update

We couldn’t post pictures of us on social media or hold hands in public or be a couple on a double date with our friends. Nobody would celebrate us. Nobody I’d grown up with would come to our engagement party or RSVP to our wedding one day. No one to stand next to me at the altar while she came down the aisle or make a best man speech with stories from when we were kids.

I knew there would be a safe place to eat on the route and the car would be peaceful and quiet. Maybe heaven was just an infinite car ride with Chris. Him behind the wheel. Us leaving everyone and everything behind. Woofarine on my lap, Minnesota in the rearview. Starting over. Going back. Picking right. But you can’t go back. You can only stop making the mistakes you keep making.

get out.

Mike didn’t make me feel safe, I realized. He didn’t make me feel unsafe, but I could never shut off my brain with him like I could with Chris. When Chris drove, I could take a nap or be on my phone. I didn’t have to keep my eyes on the road. When Chris said he was going to drive, I didn’t have to watch to see how much he had to drink. I didn’t have to put my own drink down in case I had to take over.

Love is self-sustaining. It doesn’t get weak and die when you don’t feed it. Even when I put it away, locked it up, shut in the deepest recesses of my heart, I still loved her in the dark. I could love her from a distance. I could love her in silence. I could love her without even wanting to.

I LOVE CHRIS

sidenote... why are we still with mike?? at 3 quarters in?? i was buying into a romance... like a real romance... come on abby!!

i'm sorry but.. HOW does mike not know larissa has a nut allergy? the whole planet knows.

mike is a bad person. but not once do we get the concert flashback?? confused. utterly confused. also we never actually find out why mike is bad. but chris reads... dream man

the first abby jimenez read i haven't enjoyed... :(

chris is such a man written by a woman

are we going to get a mike pov??