audrey’s Reviews > Ander & Santi Were Here > Status Update

Having all the time in the world. And peace. And happiness. And rest. Annoying that we are here, we have each other, and no one can take that away from us now.
No one can take him from me now.
Mi querido.
Mi Santiago.

“… this will always be my home... But my heart isn’t here anymore. My soul isn’t here anymore. And I need to go to that place. To where they are. Where he is. To see if home can also be somewhere else. With someone else. I know you’re scared. I’m scared. This isn’t gonna be easy. But I can’t just not do something because it’s big and scary. Not when it’s for someone I love…”

“Yes…But you’ve already decided that…And if it happens to matter at all, what you’re doing is also brave. And it shows a lot of love. Those are excellent qualities to carry through life. Knowing what’s worth taking risks for, even when it’s terrifying. Stick with that, under. And don’t ever get to the end of anything wishing you’ve done more. Felt more.”

Art that is going to keep me here even after I’m gone. Each with a little part of my soul. All of them together telling my story.

Someone who will come into that school and fuck up this guy‘s world and the world of everyone who treats us in our art like they do our food and our music and our humor: as something they can take in and consume without seeing our humanity.

“Thank you Juni. The only reason I can do this is because you believed in me.”
“ as much as I’d like to take credit, and I will take some, you got yourself here, Ander. And if you could do that, you can do anything you put your mind to. Especially with the support I know you’re gonna have, as reluctant as I’m sure they’ll be at first.”

“We were supposed to have all the time in the world.”
…
“I believed we would. I believed in us. And Ive never loved anyone like I love you. You’re my Heaven.”

You’re not funny. And whether or not that made me laugh doesn’t matter because you’re not funny. It’s a good thing you got me to fall in love with you before I realized how not funny you are.

You do a lot of things to me, cielo, but I think most importantly, you make me feel safe.
I only feel rested when I rest with you.

And then we’re going to tear this building down and feee all the…lives this place and places like it have ruined. Because Santi and all of them don’t deserve to just survive. They deserve to live. To thrive. They deserve the opportunity for happiness and whatever way that comes. They deserve it because they’re human…They’re human, and they deserve humanity.