Maddie’s Reviews > I'm Glad My Mom Died > Status Update

Welp, her mom died. It took forever, and it was painful, and I’m only reading about it. She also is starting to spiral with alcoholism, and that’s rough to feel through her writing as well. This is again, one of those moments where I relate and not at all at the same time. Her family frustrates me. Her friends also really frustrate me. How can you be enabling something that’s obviously harmful to her right now?

This has been hard but good. I definitely still had some triggering moments today (the Creator is my past mentor, her mom is my mom in some ways), but it wasn’t as much of a gut punch this time. Maybe because I’m starting to feel her guilt and anger at the same time, whereas before she was just taking it all on the chin because she was a child and didn’t even know how or what to do

I had a hard time reading today. I’m still enjoying reading, but again it just feels triggering. She’s finally past the “my mom is a god” stage, but now she’s feeling so much guilt for even questioning her dislike of her mom’s treatment. She’s on her own for the first time at 18, and it’s almost like she has to make up for that time she was never alone. I get that.

Oh my god, I hate her mom. And I’m only 100 pages in and still have a hot minute to go. I totally relate to her “lucky numbers” issue, but not to her mom having to physically wash and shower her kids herself (especially with her 16 year old brother??). I knew she was messed in the beginning, but it’s only getting so much worse

Today was a little harder than yesterday, just because 1.) I hate her mom and 2.) it reminds me of a lot of my own memories. Definitely not the same experience, but those little triggers are so interesting to me. But I hate her mom and I’m only at the beginning of the book… great

Really interesting so far, and not going to lie, a tad bit triggering in quite a few ways. But I’m excited (I don’t think that’s the right word here though) to continue reading more of her story