maya’s Reviews > Between Tides & Thunder > Status Update

okay genuinely what the fuck is a heartwielder and why is everyone so quick to suggest it? it sounds like they just make you stop feeling traumatized? how does that work. do they make you forget the feeling? make you forget the experience? do you just become numb? feel nothing? oh your mom died do you need a heartwielder? do they erase your mother from your life? make you feel the grief less? hello????

“i will take his cruelty, his disdain. i’ll bathe in his contempt until im covered in every drop of his wrath. i’ll embrace his rage, wrap it around myself like a cloak, until its the only thing that warms me. i’ll swallow his resentment, bite after seething bite, until its the only thing that fuels me. i’ll take anything he gives me, as long as i can be his again.”
WHAT. THE FUCK. HOLY ABUSE APOLOGIST

girl stand UP. he killed your people (kinda zero sum there because your people killed his people), you thought he killed your best friends, he ACTUALLY killed your friend right in front of you (imo it doesn’t matter that you weren’t in love with the friend he was still your friend), he left you alone to almost get raped, punched the wall next to your head and you’re still in love with him

putting this down for now because i genuinely don’t want to deal