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“You are terrified. Your lungs are closing. The room is moving. Something bad is about to happen. It's already in the room. It is making your back cold. You wait and then it doesn't happen. The thing has left the room it has left you behind. It isn't going to end. There isn't day and night. There isn't time. Only pain, the pressure and the terror that is like a twisted cord running down the centre of your body.”
— 14 hours, 20 min ago
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Riyah
is on page 227 of 352
'Martha, he said afterwards, lying next to me. 'Everything is broken and messed up and completely fine. That is what life is.
It's only the ratios that change. Usually on their own. As soon as you think that's it, it's going to be like this forever, they change again.'
— 13 hours, 27 min ago
It's only the ratios that change. Usually on their own. As soon as you think that's it, it's going to be like this forever, they change again.'
Riyah
is on page 226 of 352
“We were suddenly outside, running across the road, hand in hand, towards a bar. We drank champagne, then tequila.
T told Patrick we were like two people who had decided to turn themselves in but, in the moment of surrender, they had realised that as exhausting as it was to keep running and surviving and not give up, the alternative is worse. I said, 'Because the alternative is other people.”
— 14 hours, 12 min ago
T told Patrick we were like two people who had decided to turn themselves in but, in the moment of surrender, they had realised that as exhausting as it was to keep running and surviving and not give up, the alternative is worse. I said, 'Because the alternative is other people.”
Riyah
is on page 194 of 352
“He said, Martha, expressing opinions about peculiar people is the only thing you care about. And you never ever need to be asked.”
ME TOO GIRL
Ingrid is a good sister to her and always there when needed, when she told her she made her happy but Martha isn’t one who can help her OOF, Ingrid needs to stop having so many kids tho omg, lots to say about motherhood and womanhood
— 14 hours, 14 min ago
ME TOO GIRL
Ingrid is a good sister to her and always there when needed, when she told her she made her happy but Martha isn’t one who can help her OOF, Ingrid needs to stop having so many kids tho omg, lots to say about motherhood and womanhood
Riyah
is on page 184 of 352
“I said I just wanted to not exist any more and asked if there was something he could give me that would make me go away, but in a way that wouldn't hurt anyone or make a mess. Then I stopped talking because he said I seemed more intelligent than that, sounding frustrated.”
I FEEL SO SAD WHEN SHE IS SAD AGAIN
“I wanted him not to believe me when I said I was fine”
REAL
— 14 hours, 18 min ago
I FEEL SO SAD WHEN SHE IS SAD AGAIN
“I wanted him not to believe me when I said I was fine”
REAL
Riyah
is on page 166 of 352
“how you were meant to feel afterwards. That the afterwards is why sex exists.”
Aftercare is really everything
They are happy now and I really do like Patrick and learning more about him and his childhood
Even if Martha doesn’t know how to be a wife and is scared, he seems very calm and caring.
— 14 hours, 22 min ago
Aftercare is really everything
They are happy now and I really do like Patrick and learning more about him and his childhood
Even if Martha doesn’t know how to be a wife and is scared, he seems very calm and caring.
Riyah
is on page 160 of 352
“It is hard to look into someone's eyes. Even when you love them, it is difficult to sustain it, for the sense of being seen through. In some way, found out. But, for as long as the kiss had lasted, I didn't feel guilty for saying yes and being so happy when I had just taken something away from Patrick so that I could have what I wanted.”
He was so happy she said FINE to them getting married ugh I love him
— Sep 13, 2026 11:37AM
He was so happy she said FINE to them getting married ugh I love him
Riyah
is on page 158 of 352
This whole scene made my head spin, from love to marriage before the first kiss, Patrick is a virgin?? The rushed kids no kids talk ?!?! Which is a step to the end…
“Even though I do - I picked the edge of the table'- want to be with you, all the time.'
Patrick remained exactly as he was. I want you to be with me all the time.'
The way he said it made me feel like my body was suddenly full of warm water.”
— Sep 13, 2026 11:34AM
“Even though I do - I picked the edge of the table'- want to be with you, all the time.'
Patrick remained exactly as he was. I want you to be with me all the time.'
The way he said it made me feel like my body was suddenly full of warm water.”
Riyah
is on page 157 of 352
“I told him that I loved him. Patrick turned around and leaned against the counter, folded his arms loosely and asked me to marry him. soal I said no. I'm saying it because I don't think we should spend as much time together as we were before you went away. I felt like your girlfriend and it's not fair for me to be with you all of the time, because even if I was your girlfriend, it couldn't go anywhere.“ WHAT
— Sep 13, 2026 11:31AM
Riyah
is on page 125 of 352
“I could see his goodness. And I was alone so much, there was comfort in remembering Patrick as good, in imagining. his sameness, imagining he was with me as I walked along an unpopulated street or marked hours in an uncustomered shop.
Reassurance and company, the relief of boredom, whenever I wanted to be at home…”
— Sep 13, 2026 11:29AM
Reassurance and company, the relief of boredom, whenever I wanted to be at home…”
Riyah
is on page 120 of 352
“ Nostos, Martha, returning home. Algos, pain. Nostalgia is the suffering caused by our unappeased yearning to return. Whether or not, he said, the home we long for ever existed. At the gate to his platform, Peregrine kissed me on both cheeks and said,
'November, and I knew it would be my birthday.”
RIP PEREGRINE :(
— Sep 13, 2026 11:28AM
'November, and I knew it would be my birthday.”
RIP PEREGRINE :(