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Even if he had been there, that Halloween night; the way he’d been back then, he probably would have let Sirius kill him, too, rather than try to fight him.
Back then, dying for love had seemed the only worthy cause. But he was older, now, and he knew the truth. Never again. Never, never.

“No one owes you a happy life." Remus mournfully parroted Matron’s old adage as they swayed down the hall together.
"No," Grant huffed, setting him into bed. He looked down at Remus pityingly, "But you owe yourself one, love.”

"You only come back because you're basically homeless" Remus spat one evening
"Yep" Grant replied, blithely "That’s exactly right, Remus me old pal. Nuffink to do with the fact that I love your dozy arse"

I really admire Grant in this time. Being there for Remus even though he’s probably being an arsehole
What makes this even sad? Is the fact that in cannon, Remus didn’t have anyone. He was utterly alone☹️

he’d been sleeping on the couch for weeks. Or months? Who cared. It was uncomfortable, but he couldn’t bring himself to enter the bedroom. Most nights he was too drunk to move anyway. Most days he was too drunk. He didn’t have hangovers anymore, just breaks between bottles.

Oh Remus this is so sad.
He didn’t die with the marauders but his spirit did

The bike’s gone, I don’t know where.”
“He must have taken it.”

Hagrid took it with little Harry bundled up in his arms🥺

But after some weeks, Remus came to see that this distance was something else, more than just the usual stress. Sirius had pulled back.
“Miss you.” Remus said, one night. It had taken all day to raise the courage for those two stupid words.
“I’m right here.” Sirius smiled tiredly, sitting across the table, picking at dinner with his fork.

Chapter 173: The War: Autumn 1981

Chapter Summary
This is it, guys...


NO. I’m not ready. It can’t end now. It can’t just end like this

James raised his glass to toast "To our friends" he said, "Who’ve always been there for us, through thick and thin - Lily, Harry and I love you all so much.”
Remus had to spend a few minutes composing himself in the downstairs loo. When he came out, Sirius was watching him again, his eyes narrow

I just don’t understand. Is Sirius doubting everyone or just Remus specifically because of the werewolf stuff?

“Everyone looked around the room. Remus felt a bit queasy - he did not consider the people congregated to be ‘mixed company’. They were the people he trusted with his life. He tried to catch Sirius’s eye, but Sirius quickly looked away.”

The buildup to the betrayal is so heart wrenching because I know how it ends and what’s going to happen and it hurts to see them doubting each other and pointing fingers