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In the end:

I really do hope you find what you’re looking for, and I hope you find
something new to look for after that, and I hope some part of you is
always looking and that you discover that searching is something
beautiful we all do.


I hope you never stop looking for you.

We’re all pretending to be something that we secretly don’t want to
be. We all think we know what we want sometimes and we think
we’re dedicated and strong enough to get it, until we’re distracted.
We all stay up late at night writing sentences in lists that start with
the words 'we all' in the hope that whatever we feel, we don’t feel it
alone. Don’t we?

And we’re all looking for the one strange trick that’ll make us happy.
We’re all hoping it’s something we can buy or something that will
change us just by thinking about it, like being in the now, or letting go
or enjoying what you have
or setting a goal
or taking up a hobby.
We all miss something or someone we’re not supposed to miss.

They should’ve said:

'You should know: I kept every ticket.

Because I want to remember
every good place we went.

Even if the movie was horrible.

Even if the concert started late and it rained.

Even if the train took us
somewhere we were never meant to go.

I want to remember.'

There is someone trying
one more time,
and then giving up,
not knowing that they still had to
try one more time after that.

There is someone in all of us.

Show me how you tell someone that the thought of them spreads
like a warm river through your soul, until it leaves through the eyes.

How do you tell someone that you would do everything
for them.

How do you explain that there is no greater force in the universe
than the love you have in your heart for them.

Not everyone wins the lottery,
but everyone who does
bought a ticket.

To live the life you want,
you have to be brave
and buy the ticket every single day.

'I know who I am. I am the one that looks for me. And every single
day, I find me again. I find myself in the things I do and the things I
notice. I find myself in crowds and in solitude. I find myself in quiet
moments and at the top of tall mountains. I find myself in the tips of
waves, in forests, and in the books I read.

I find myself in leaves and rain and old photos.

Every single day, I find me again.'

Take a moment, now, to be conscious of
what you’re doing with your time.

If you intend to waste it, that’s fine,
just be aware that you’re wasting it.

Do not confuse being in the same room,
with spending good time with another
human being.

Do not confuse the distractions of the world,
with the world itself.

They’ll say,

'We can make miles if we hold our breaths and dive beneath the
sheets together, we can make it all the way there and back if you
trust me.

We can make it somewhere good.

Trust me when I say I love you like the light in
autumn loves the leaves, like a wave loves the sand, like good loves
bad, like everything we can still be
to each other.'