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“And I know it’s not gonna happen. Especially tonight, but for some reason, I feel like I have to say I’d give anything to make love to you right now. I want to show you how good it can be when two people care about each other.”

“In the meantime, what you have to remember is, when it comes right down to it, ‘someday’ doesn’t really exist. Because the only day we ever really have is today. So as long as you’re spending today in a way that fulfills you—that makes you happy—that’s all that really matters.”

“Then I guess I’m okay, because right this minute, I’m exactly where I want to be.”

Erick leaned in and kissed him,“So am I.”

“I think I should tell you, it wasn’t just the sex I needed. I needed you. I needed you because I was scared and somehow I knew if I could just get to you, you’d take care of me. That everything would be okay.”

“Well, I can’t promise you everything is going to be okay, but I can promise I will take care of you. Whenever you need me, I’ll be here for you,”

Here, at last, was the heat to warm the heart that had felt cold and dead all week. Here was the easing for the ache that was burning a hole inside him.

"Like it or not, I want you. Which—in case you missed it—means I’m already not who or what I thought I was. So whether I ever get to kiss you or not, it’s not going to matter. I’m still going to have to find a way to deal with who and what I am. And I will. I’m not sure exactly how, right now, but I will deal with it.

“I want you, Erick. More than I’ve ever wanted anyone in my life. In fact, just thinking about making love with you gets me hot enough to melt the chrome off a trailer hitch. And it’s that feeling that’s been holding me back. But it’s not anymore.”

"...I think you and I both know it’s not going to stop at kissing.”

“What makes you say that?”

“Oh, come on, Bo,” Erick chided. “We can’t even hug each other good-bye without getting a hard-on. Hell, I’ve got a hard-on now and all we’re doing is talking about kissing, and unless you happen to be carrying a hammer in your pocket, I’d say you feel the same way.”

“The funny thing is, though,” Bo continued, “knowing I can be so attracted to a guy hasn’t made me curious about what it would be like to be with one, or at least not with just any guy. What I am curious about is what it would be like to be with you ."

He cared about him so much. He was so wise and strong, yet his gentleness touched places inside Bo’s heart he hadn’t even known were there. Everything inside him yearned to be closer to him.

“I care about you too. So why don’t you just shut up for a minute and let me do what I do when I care about someone?”

“Which is…?”

“I hold them when they cry. It’s not a straight thing, it’s a me thing,” he teased. “So work with me, okay?”

This time Erick’s laugh sounded genuine. “Well, if you really feel like you have to, I guess I can live with it.”