Jayden’s Reviews > Letters to Milena > Status Update

I must confess I once envied someone very much because he was loved, well cared-for, guarded by reason and strength, and because he lay peacefully under flowers. I’m always quick to envy.

Yesterday I dreamt about you. I hardly remember the details, just that we kept on merging into one another

I am dirty, Milena, infinitely dirty, this is why I scream so much about purity.

I’m doing badly, I’m doing well, whichever you prefer[…].

it’s getting dirty 😧

And sometimes and ten times and a thousand times and always I want to be with you and you are saying the same thing. Enough, enough.

And despite everything, I think that if it is possible to die of happiness then I will certainly do so. And if someone destined to die can be kept alive by happiness, then I will stay alive.