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I wanted mel and sally to last forever. I must be projecting.

why did I choose this book? it was supposed to be cathartic, but it reminds me too much of my life. every reminder sends pangs of grief through my chest.

“some memory you keep underneath, so you can get on with your life. It doesn’t work. what happens is that you end up moving from dream to dream.”

my life is full of daydreams and fantasies. I spend more time in my mind. the real world is foreign to me. it’s the only way I can escape.

what a wicked curse; to resemble so much of the person that ruined you.

“… I am my father’s child”.

as much as I despise him, we are inextricably intertwined. my personality I derive from him. I know this because it see it, like staring into a cracked mirror, and it’s terrifying.

I want to erase this part of me, but would it even help? interwoven with myself, I must learn to deal with it.

what a somber conclusion to part one. why do I find so many comparisons to my life in the pages? I’m scared that I am doomed to the same fate as sally. inevitable, but at least I can find catharsis in this novel.

I really love Lilith’s character, and no, the irony is not lost on me.

“But what, exactly, was the point? What was the use of calling up the past when you were drowning, how was it going to save you?”

I have thought the same. When I relay my thoughts, I don’t feel lighter because of it. I continue to replay the events of my life without resolution, as if I’m in a constant state of mourning.

Perpetual mental bloodshed. A constant, inescapable loop.

how is sally able to speak to douglas after he sexually assaulted her? am I over reacting, over-dramatizing the situation?

it’s been a while since I’ve found it hard to put down a book. I am instantly transported into the world of Sally Wang, which is strikingly similar to mine.

“… you’re not contemplating suicide anymore, but you’re not exactly jumping up and down at the prospect of living either.”

what a way to sum up my entire being since being conscious.