Gerda Saunders's Blog: Field Notes on My Dementia

Featured image: The Glass Key, René Magritte, 1959. It portrays a cracked (bottom left edge) boulder “floating” just above where the stone balances on the mountain ridge. There is no glass in the painting. I the painting’s title, Magritte intended for “glass” to be symbolic for “fragility,” the boulder for “key.” The artist thought about […]

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Title: Lines from Billy Collins’s poem “In the Moment” Featured image: Birth (Gunpowder Works), 1981), Ana Mendieta   “a pea/ of being inside the green pod of time” While drowning in the Sturm und Drang of my pre- and post back-surgery wretchedness, I most of all desired a restorative interval of quiet in my soul. […]

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Featured image: An illustration titled Birdman by Frits Ahlefeldt (1966), a Danish hiker and walking philosopher: “I’m wondering about this world, about us and what we do and think making drawn stories and research about the benefits of walking both in words and drawings.” He publishes his drawings at the “Museum of Psychology.” The illustration […]

The post “Pain does not run just along the body but also seizes the mind,” or, How a “lucky-to-get” clinic appointment thrust Gerda into the arms of Doña Quixote first appeared on MY LIFE WITH DEMENTIA.

 Featured image: Black angel in the Aurora consurgens (Dawn Rising) illuminated manuscript held at Zentralbibliothek Zürich in Switzerland, a 15th-century illuminated alchemical document, with its oldest, most heavily illustrated version dating to approximately 1420-1430.  Its author is unknown.  Post title: Quote from the poem “The Black Angel” by Michael S Harper (1938-2016).  He wrote his […]

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Featured image: Peter AI’ed the image from a grumpy photo of me and a meme about The Little Engine That Could You’d think, past sixty or so, the unconscious would give you some respite. But here, it says, is the little engine of dread and sorrow that runs your story —Robert Hass, “John Muir, A […]

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 Featured image:  A year ago or so, I saw a photo by Salt Lake City poet, writer, community literary-arts leader, photographer—and my friend—Joel Long on his nature and wildlife blog that raised gooseflesh on my arms. Teeter-totter is his shot of coyotes on the salt flats of the Great Salt Lake, the Davis County Causeway […]

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Featured image: About 700 prehistoric cave paintings—strung along about 1 1/2 miles of wall in the Magura Cave, Bulgaria—include an annual sun-moon calendar from the Bronze Age that—via carbon dating of the bat guano out of which it was created—archeologists dated back to ca 7,000 years ago. Flanking the calendar, human figures salute the sunrise […]

The post In this season of our Sun’s death and rebirth, may you be “wound/ With mercy round and round/ As if with air/” Gerard Manley Hopkins (1883) first appeared on MY LIFE WITH DEMENTIA.

Featured image: Peter made the AI image from a news photo of the mess after the Wildwood election rally. He added 2 items from other rallies: a red hat and an abandoned flag. Doña Quixote with broom shows her hubris by imagining that she still can contribute to setting right our sociopolitical mayhem. Isn’t it […]

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Featured image: Child Gerda—9 years old, Grade VI, in photo—imagines what she shall be when she grows up. Thanks to Peter for manipulating this photo and several illustrations (artists not known) as background to the photo, as well as creating the other manipulated images. “Que será, será  Whatever will be, will be The future’s not […]

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Featured image: Detail of the Portrait of Macee Leodepard, Wife of The French Trader Jacques Coeur, by the French School (15th century). Jacques Coeur ( 1395-1456), a contemporary of Joan of Arc (1412-1431), was a significant patron of the arts, one of the wealthy merchants who helped shape the artistic landscape during the period when art […]

The post When Doña Quixote is more anguished about the holes in her HAIR than the holes in her HEAD… first appeared on MY LIFE WITH DEMENTIA.