Cierra Solange's Blog - Posts Tagged "self-love"

I have 9 days until my first book launch event. Nervous doesn't even begin to describe how I feel! I've always been someone who struggles to speak to strangers, but I try to be warm and engaging. This is the first event where the focus will be on me, and that's outside my comfort zone. I prefer to work behind the scenes and be a cheerleader for others - it's so much easier. Honestly, I have a hard time accepting love and compliments. God is still working on me with this. I'm hopeful He'll use this event to help me grow in this area. I'm not sure why it's easier for me to give love than to receive it. I think that's a downfall when you're used to being in the background - people don't really see you and the light God has given you. We have to remind ourselves how God sees us - like a town on a hill that can't be hidden (Matthew 5:14). If you're like me, I encourage you to deepen your prayer life and ask God to show you how He sees you. Allow Him to reignite that light within you. Ask Him to reveal why you feel the need to stay comfortable in the background. For me, it was definitely related to my weight gain. I've gained over 100 pounds, which is the most I've ever weighed. This has caused me to dislike my appearance and withdraw, just like the main character in my book. It took me a while to start seeing myself the way God does, and that required a lot of self-care on my part. In order to receive love, we have to learn to love ourselves first. I'm excited to see how this event turns out, and I'll be sure to keep you updated!One Look

The week of my book launch event has been filled with a whirlwind of emotions. I've felt incredibly nervous and excited at the same time. There's been a lot of anxiety and worry swirling around, though I'm not sure exactly where it's all coming from. The constant racing thoughts and inability to sleep properly due to this overwhelming anxiety has been really challenging.
However, through prayer and turning to God, I've been able to let go of these problems. Even though I'm struggling financially and don't have the means to purchase a dress for the event, God has provided in miraculous ways. A woman from my Bible study group gave me a revelation that has helped me understand the need to forgive, give back, and do more. This has led me to start a fast, which has brought me a deep sense of peace.
Although this has been a weird and difficult journey, I wouldn't want it any other way. God has aligned everything perfectly - from having my sister help me find an affordable dress, to not having to pay for anything out of pocket. It's truly a testament to how God works and provides, even when we don't have the means ourselves. I'm forever grateful and can't wait to share more about how the launch event goes. Feel free to tune in to my live updates @itscierratho.