M .'s Blog

If you set expectations then you should give the  opportunity and support for those expectations to be met....there can never be real progress in anything that has not been given a chance. The world is so quick to give up on a child that isn't responding to the usual methods...these kids are all expected to be the same from what I noticed and if they are NOT well the world gives up they are NOT dealing with a difficult case but really they're just children maybe the approach is the problem ...maybe the world gives up too easily ...maybe we expect immediate unrealistic results while we put minimal effort.
Maybe we label, medicate, throw aside...maybe we give up too easily instead of trying harder, caring more, doing more.
We don't embrace ones uniqueness we actually act as if uniqness is a flaw. 
We expect perfection according to certain standards but do not give our all to give every unique beautiful child a chance to actually be able to achieve this perfection. We give up too easy and want too much .
And sure not every child is tossed aside some make it BUT we forget that we are in this city, country, planet together. The effects of tossing a child any child for any reason aside...to give up on them ...well that child effects all of us in so many ways.
People see only the small picture. People care to a point.
What do we do with kids we tossed aside the kids we gave up on...we don't see the beauty of a unique individual we see a problem.

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"WHAT IF..."

What if the moon had a portal
A way out of hell
What if the earth crashed into the sun
Go to sleep never to wake well.
What if God had enough
And said this was a bad plan
What if we are being tested
To see what is man.
What if your soul was being tried
The earths' rotation coming to a still
The end of days here now
What if it was all real
What if we're here to grow
Learn from one another
Help your sister...help your brother.
What if this was your last day
To figure out what is darkness...what is light
Would you be able to say you did your best to evolve
To do not wrong...but right.
What if we're pieces to a puzzle
All different yet valuable in the same
Each to do their own part
Not to belittle and blame.
What if it is all a curse
Would we be able to break free
Have hearts big enough to feel
Have eyes open enough to see.
What  if God is a merging ...uniting factor
Not one meant to divide
Showing each a unique way to life
Not to spread hate ...not a something from which to hide.
What if love was the cure
Money ...hate...power...poisons for the soul
Would we live or die
 if it was none or all.

Experience my emotions from a distance
Tear apart and analyze making safe decisions
Disect every thought to see it's base
Every feeling explained.
Love it comes from the heart
Love it has no rules
Love ...hardly ever treated with care
Love...so abused.
Giving into the unknown
The brain it just wont let it be
Letting others in
Complicated and so not me.
I wear my heart on my sleeve
I hurt so deep
Yet I feel as if I was an outsider
As if dreaming in a sleep.
I rule my emotions
A mighty warrior to survive
Too many lies directed my way
but it will not be my demise.
Heart on parole
My love not to be shared
It was always to pass me hurt
For my love no one cared

Those you trusted
Betrayed you
Those you loved
Did not love you back
Those you helped and gave your all for
Turn their backs and desert you
From every direction animosity and low blows
Yet you find strength
You proceed forward
Alone; you recognize it's just that way
You smile;you laugh
Sometimes you cry;you pray
Days they keep going
You look for a lesson in it all
You trip;you stumble;you're pushed;you fall
You reach for a hand
Yet it's nowhere to be found
Strength;pick up yourself
Continue forward
No ones around
But yet,pride and self respect glimmer
Never tired; never gave up; never even looked back
These are the moments
This is your life
Through the good and the bad
You remained true to yourself
Accomplished
Many lost in the chaos
Themselves never to find
Most are blind and deaf to themselves
Life no longer touches them
Their hearts no longer feel
Its not their fault
Its the doing of so much real
The pain it numbs souls
The hardship hardens hearts
Its a battle of life and mere existence
Life or death
A lesson of overcoming
Not giving into the world
Not bowing down
You must fight for yourself
The emotions,the reality,the love
Its a battle;It's even a war
Each one goes through it with a mighty sword
Don't drop your weapon,do not give in
In life you have one you
Don't lose yourself
Don't let the world eat you!

The world with its frozen heart, it makes its citizens not feel, we become numb to emotion, after so much real.
Dreams they vanish, hope subsides, washed away, with the worlds tides.
We become little,irrelevant,vague,even disposable,
Its all so unnecessary, all of it just horrible.
In tho world, surrounded by masses, we are all just one, as the time passes.

Through the darkness he led her way,"captain of the ship"she heard him say. She found comfort in his words, love that knows no bounds. A connection in his emotions and hers was found.
A life of heartache and pain, suffering since your environment provides no comfort ,they found each other. Belief kept them together.
Support came from the abyss of darkness, led the Angel to the light. In search for home she found the strength to move forward.
Never had such a fierce battle been fought! She found herself in the darkness where her strength awaited.
The Angel knowing although the reality of the abyss was no longer unknown, she chose the light. Feeling honored to bask in the light, knowing what it was like without it , the harsh and cruel darkness teaching her a lesson.

My first children's book is going to be out in a few days.Princess Malorove and other short stories. It is a collection of poetry style stories and artwork.More info soon.

Sometimes we are put in situations where we have to defend ourselves and our inner peace. It seems as if at times so many want to take that from us for whatever reason , its sad ,so many are genuinely nice but its impossible to survive as an angel when surrounded by devils I guess. Sometimes you have to be firm even ruthless to defend your being.its unfair when that happens to the good by nature, its painful but necessary. Life and our interactions with each other are usually battles. I sometimes envision a life of peace but I seems to be impossible in the world we live in.

We are born.we live.we die.
Being born is destiny.
Being alive is a blessing,although at times it's hard. So many give up along the way,yeah it gets that hard sometimes but if you just keep at it,it gets better. As we overcome obstacles,problems,bad circumstances,unwanted emotions we grow. We all change as we grow and learn life. Life is the greatest and most effective school. It's important to remember along the way not to change everything tho. Some stuff should not change,the foundation of you should remain the same. Never let others change you to be as you do not like yourself to be since you have to live with you. I believe in doing good even when good is not necessarily directed at you. Some people love to take away others peace. Don't let anyone take your peace. Life, truly is hard half the time you should allow nothing to make it harder. A lot of the problem with life is our interactions with others. And yeah, money is always a problem , but the biggest problem is how we treat each other,communicate,have compassion for one another. If there was no competition ,jealousy,and stigmas about one another,possibly it would be easier. There would be more happy people.
Life is not all bad tho,it has its beautiful moments,good people,good times,happy occasions.as we live we learn from those things that we live thru. I learned a lot so far. I never changed who I am tho in the process. I fight everyday to remain happy with myself,I know if I change who I am I'd never be happy. Not because I'm perfect,too likeable,interesting,or anything. Just, I like me. I think its one lesson I learned.
Everyone's beautiful, no ones better, we are all here together.we are all unique, even tho so many try not to be, deep down they are unique too.
Live the best that you can. Grow as much as possible.
Love fully and wholeheartedly. Forgive, but instead of forgetting....learn. Share with others what you know.
Death....that is a mystery.