This week was a bit of a trial. I made good use of my desk and my writing is coming back. The quality and the quantity are both growing. This excites me because I am beginning to find my way back to my writing. It also means I feel less like I am letting Savannah down. It also means I am starting to think about my future projects that I am going to be working on starting next year. One of those projects I have been talking about is starting a YouTube page. The page would feature live reads, Q&A’s and book trailers. There would also be videos of me being me, which can be funny and over the top at times which I can be. The vision I have for it would be more than just me. I would want my friend and partner in the author world to take this leap with me. It could be profitable for both of us. Right now, the YouTube page is just a thought and it will take me a year to actually get everything together in order to launch it. It is an exciting prospect but one I want to do.

I am still doing my online training. The goal is to complete the training before school starts. The issue is I only seem to be able to get through two videos a day. With the supposed start of the new school year has brought some uncertainty as to what my job will entail. The plan as it stands now is a lot more than I normally do and I do quite a bit in my day to day job as it is. The thing is with my day job is it is never the same two days in a row, it is one of the things I love about my job. It is also what will make my new responsibilities much more difficult. I can feel the stress of the entire situation as it builds inside of me. The stress begins to take a toll on me. The first sign of the stress I am feeling is that I am having issues sleeping again. Maybe it’s still I’m not quite sure. I am also having issues focusing on one task at a time. I find myself trying to do multiple tasks at once because I feel like I just do not have enough hours in the day to get everything done. Eventually the stress will begin to affect other parts of my life but for now it is not.

With all this uncertainty around all of us I know I am not the only one feeling stressed out. At this point the stress of it makes me feel like I am being crushed alive. So what do you do?

For me I have started adding to my workout. I have started riding my bike again, which has its upside to it. I enjoy being on my bike because I like to go fast and I find it fun. In some ways it makes me feel like a kid again. The downside is I tend to push myself a little too hard and after thirty minutes I have a difficult time walking. The end result though is there feels less stress. The other thing I have started doing is I have started going out more. One of the things I have been doing is going to a restaurant that has live music. It’s a mellow place where I can chill and enjoy different types of music each week. Sitting listening to music is one of my favorite things to do. For me music is as important as breathing. It is a piece of my soul and I need it everyday. When I don’t get enough music I feel like screaming and my irritation through the day grows. My need for music has gotten so bad that my twelve year old has decided she hates going to the store with me because of the fact that I will start singing songs like “I Want To Know What Love Is” in the store. Don’t worry I make sure I sing the song over the top as it is meant to be sung. The last thing I have been doing is visiting the pool at night. I like going and enjoying the pool when most people are not there. It is relaxing and I get the hot tube to myself. That in and of itself is a win in my book.

With so much uncertainty in our world it is important to find ways to find a piece of happiness and a way to relieve the stress. If you don’t it will begin to wear you down in more ways than one. Find the thing that helps you keep going. Find what helps you laugh and sing and dance through these difficult times. Until next time.