Dear Blog, 

I don't know if I have ever had such a hard several weeks. 

I just feel so much like a child. 

I would like someone very much to hold me, and tell me it's going to be okay. 

That That I'm okay.

That the storm will pass.

That I'll feel normal again.

That the sun will come out.

And everything will go back to normal. 

 I feel humbled, confused, and frightened.  

And I would like to feel, brave, sure, and strong.

I would like to be able to know what the right thing to do is.

I don't know how to trust this story, as it keeps confusing me. 

 So I'm just trying to trust something. 

Trusting that somehow, when I write, I am not so alone.

Trusting that somehow God can work out the most wonky of circumstances. 

As I feel there is so much that has confused me. The only thing I know to do is surrendering my life to Grace.

Surrendering my heart to Grace.

Surrendering the story to Grace.

And trust that.

Because it's the only thing I know.

And even though it feels really hard.

For a not just me, but many others.

That Christ has more wisdom than me. 

 That grace holds the story, and always has.