The term narcissism seemed well-established in Ama’s time and became thought of as an overused term. Ama saw society had changed, and this, along with much else, needed redefining and exposing so powerful positive change could result.

Ama saw that this term had become muddled, and she saw it as a generalized problem in society. Her approach was to redefine it and came to call it narcissistic social disordering, which she saw as a needs-based problem.

She saw we were at the height of narcissistic social disorder, seeing it in all of us, including herself. To her, we were all striving to be seen and heard and operated without awareness, controlling others as a result of not having these needs met.

Ama might share a story with a friend about a burden she had, and the friend would override it with their own story of hurt. She saw we’d learned that hurt was to constantly be pushed down, and we were no longer able to hold it back, so we “one-upped.” Nobody listened when there was conflict; they only gave advice or shut it down. Nobody seemed to truly care about each other. It felt to Ama that her childhood home was “every person for themselves,” and now this was also our world society.

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Ama could see the problem throughout the whole of society. The overt control and enabling were fiercely defended. Ama knew it was The Model they defended and what it championed, the hierarchy. She believed people felt better to have a broken system than to have unknowns and have to solve the burgeoning problems in our world. Easier to turn a blind eye and tell oneself “it will be ok” or worse, “just be positive.” Adhering to The Model would only leave us in a status quo life, upholding the ideals of others and never living our own lives. Ama found no use or power in it, so continuing on this way signaled to Ama the potential for humanity to not survive and that humans would undo themselves.

This is also why Ama looked at things outside of the system of education and facts and figures. “You’ll recall Ama saw life as an art, not a science, and now it’s easy to see this”, said Maya. Now we live life like an art, and people are free. We solve our problems almost instantaneously, and in truth, we have very few problems. We are with ourselves, not to be confused with the old term of “being present.” Being with oneself means we can be in the past, the future, right now all at once and have the same neutrality to it because we are in the human expressive expansion that is our birthright. We are truly with ourselves, not perpetuating trying to stay in the moment, which Ama felt was a fool’s errand. Bissa, “we never lost it like in Ama’s time.” Said Maya.

In truth, Ama could see everybody was hurting on earth and was also not telling themselves the truth, but had been conditioned to believe everything was fine when it was only getting worse. Some were comfortable, and others struggled so hard to keep up that it took an emotional and sometimes a physical toll on them.

Ama aimed to stop this in its tracks, and she didn’t hold back. She told everybody who would listen, she turned people’s hearts with perspective to see themselves differently. They quickly adopted this new way of thinking that was fairer to them and others, too.

Ama wanted as many examples for the world to ditch The Model and operate to restore the very foundation on which a country is to be built, maintaining a safe place for its nationals to live, be educated, have medical care, access to clean water, and food. Ama knew the problems were correctable and more than possible. She knew it could happen if it was no longer controlled by money and instead was in the hands of the people. Integrity, curiosity, and vulnerability would restore the nature of humans.

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