Mary Beth

“The spiritual realm is not the ethereal beyond our lived experience. It is our experience, lived fully and well.”
― Marya Hornbacher, Waiting: A Nonbeliever's Higher Power

“These contradictions begin to split a person in two. Body and mind fall apart from each other, and it is in this fissure that an eating disorder may flourish, in the silence that surrounds this confusion that an eating disorder may fester and thrive. An eating disorder is”
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

“Back in Minneapolis, I said I would go to American. I have a remarkable ability to delete all better judgment from my brain when I get my head set on something. Everything is done at all costs. I have no sense of moderation, no sense of caution. I have no sense, pretty much. People with eating disorders tend to be very diametrical thinkers-everything is the end of the world, everything rides on this one thing, and everyone tells you you're very dramatic, very intense, and they see it as an affectation, but it's actually just how you think. It really seems to you that the sky will fall if you are not personally holding it up. On the one hand, this is sheer arrogance; on the other hand, this is a very real fear. And it isn't that you ignore the potential repercussions of your actions. You don't think there are any.”
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

“When we doubt, we learn to accept that we may not ever know. When we question, we learn to accept that there may be no answer. When we shout our doubt out into the universe, we learn to accept that we may be met with a silence we do not know how to read.”
― Marya Hornbacher, Waiting: A Nonbeliever's Higher Power