Alix

“No one in my family, not one of my friends or classmates realized that I was going through life asleep.
It was literally true: I was going through life asleep. My body had no more feeling than a drowned corpse. My very existence, my life in the world, seemed like a hallucination. A strong wind would make me think my body was about to be blown to the end of the earth, to some land I had never seen or heard of, where my mind and body would separate forever. 'Hold tight,' I would tell myself, but there was nothing for me to hold on to.”
― Haruki Murakami, Sleep

“There wasn't any anger involved (I think). I mean, what was I supposed to be angry with? What I was feeling was a fundamental numbness. The numbness your heart automatically activates to lessen the awful pain when you want somebody desperately and they reject you. A kind of emotional morphine.”
― Haruki Murakami, Killing Commendatore

“Exhaustion had become a bright, shining star, and now, now, now, in the beating of her heart, it wasn't even exhaustion. It became something more exalted and debased and she felt as if she was floating over it, and all she wanted was to sleep for a million years, but she could not.”
― Jeff VanderMeer

“Is déjà vu actually the specter of false timelines that never happened but did, casting their shadows upon reality?”
― Blake Crouch, Recursion