esther. ♡

“The shock of going from being the center of attention to being out of it entirely—that still pulled at Saul at unexpected times. But there had been no drama to his collapsed ministry in the north, no shocking revelation, beyond the way he would be preaching one thing and thinking another, mistaking that conflict, for the longest time, as a manifestation of his guilt for sins both real and imagined. And one awful day he’d realized, betrayed by his passion, that he was becoming the message.”
― Jeff VanderMeer, Acceptance

“She saw or felt, deep within, the cataclysm like a rain of comets that had annihilated an entire biosphere remote from Earth. Witnessed how one made organism had fragmented and dispersed, each minute part undertaking a long and perilous passage through spaces between, black and formless, punctuated by sudden light as they came to rest,”
― Jeff VanderMeer, Acceptance

“Numbness? A sense of having gone through so many crises that emotion must be hoarded, that it might not run out.”
― Jeff VanderMeer, Acceptance

“sometimes the ancillary infected the primary. Sometimes the host and the parasite got confused about their roles,”
― Jeff VanderMeer, Acceptance