Vivek Pandey

“They either come back or they don’t.
That’s what you tell yourself.
That’s what you learn.
As you go through mundane days
with so much of pain beating in your
chest that you feel it will explode.

You strike days off your calendar,
waiting, going for a run,
picking up a new hobby,
while trying to numb that part
of your brain that refuses to forget
the little details of your skin.

Soon, you start sleeping in the
middle of the bed, learn how to
get through the evenings alone,
go to cafes and cities alone,
you learn how to cook enough
dinner for yourself and just make
do without the kisses on your neck.

You learn…Adjust..Accept..
The tumor of pain already exploded
one lonely night when you played
his voice recording by mistake.. by mistake..
But you didn’t die.. Did you?

They either come back.. or they don’t..
You survive..”
― Ayushee Ghoshal, 4 AM Conversations

“I’m not looking for somebody who will
whisper sweet nothings into my ear to feed the
ravenous ego of my heart. But someone who
can look me straight in the eye and say, I love
you, whether you fail or fall, just as you are.”
― Beau Taplin

“One day, I will wake up with a terrible longing for you. And in some corner of the world, your heart will skip several beats at the thought of my name. And you’ll finally know what I meant when I said: When you stand near a burning pyre, the heat tends to rub off on you.”
― Ayushee Ghoshal, 4 AM Conversations

“I want to talk about everything with at least one person as I talk about things with myself.”
― Fyodor Dostoyevsky, The Idiot