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“I give so much pleasure to so many people. Why can’t I get some pleasure for myself?”
― Megan Nolan, Acts of Desperation

“I wonder now at my desperation to perform domestic acts for him. I wanted more than anything to present him with the products of my labour, for him to see how invested I was in maintaining our life – and how joyfully invested”
― Megan Nolan, Acts of Desperation

“I was happy, as I always am in the sea, the only place I have ever found where my body feels natural and mine and being used according to its intent. I am weightless but not insubstantial. I am always sure of what my body should be doing there. I feel seal-like, the fat I normally hate becomes sleek and normal in water, my inelegant body can be strong there.”
― Megan Nolan, Acts of Desperation

“I’m annoyed, too—that I’m still so devoted to him, still a child. I’ve come nowhere close to fulfilling the prophecy he laid out for me years ago, a dozen lovers at twenty, a life in which he was one of many. At twenty-one, there’s still only him.”
― Kate Elizabeth Russell, My Dark Vanessa