Rina

“I’ve lived on both sides of the abuse. I wear bruises on both sides of my fist. I have wept “what am I doing” and I have cried “why did they do that”. The child of an alcoholic and the alcoholic of a child. It’s strange how broken spirits, broken hearts, and broken homes walk hand-in-hand. How they leave a clear trail of shattered to follow.

We are all picking out sins of the father like shrapnel left over from the day we were born. Bang. Welcome to life. Try not to step on a landmine before you get to twenty. Here are your parents. They hate you. Sorry that you won the race.

Me? I’ve got a piece of broken mirror lodged dangerously close to my heart. I never know which twist in the story will be the one to open up my insides and help me drown in my own soul.

People asked me where I picked up the wisdom. I don’t know that any of this actually is made of wisdom. There’s just too much fluff and well-meaning for my taste.

For me, the path was always made of pain. I haven’t found feel better or act right yet... not for myself. I’m not the best one to help anybody else find it... that’s for certain... but I know every road that leads to resentment. I’ve walked them more times than I can count. I can’t tell you how to get where you’re going, but I can give you a roadmap that highlights the places I wish I never went.

The first place on the list sits pretty damn close to home.

There’s a town called Grief & Regret
just north of Salvation, USA.

I’m putting do not enter signs
on every road that goes there.”
― Kalen Dion

“The shortest distance between two souls is an open heart.”
― Kalen Dion

“A woman becomes a responsible parent when she stops being an obedient daughter”
― Glennon Doyle, Untamed

“The only thing that was every wrong with me was my belief that there was something wrong with me.”
― Glennon Doyle, Untamed