Rena

“Time, that cold bastard, with its nearlys and untils. I think, what a shame. Time should weep for having spent me without you.”
― Mary-Louise Parker, Dear Mr. You

“LOVE, FORGIVE ME After Rachel McKibbens My sister told me a soul mate is not the person who makes you the happiest, but the one who makes you feel the most. Who conducts your heart to bang the loudest. Who can drag you giggling with forgiveness from the cellar they locked you in. It has always been you. You are the first person I was afraid to sleep next to, not because of the fear you would leave in the night but because I didn’t want to wake up gracelessly. In the morning, I crawled over your lumbering chest to wash my face and pinch my cheeks and lay myself out like a still-life beside you. Your new girlfriend is pretty like the cover of a cookbook. I have said her name into the empty belly of my apartment. Forgive me. When I feel myself falling out of love with you, I turn the record of your laughter over, reposition the needle. I have imagined our children. Forgive me. I made up the best parts of you. Forgive me. When you told me to look for you on my wedding day, to pause on the altar for the sound of your voice before sinking myself into the pond of another love, forgive me. I mistook it for a promise.”
― Sierra DeMulder, New Shoes On A Dead Horse

“longing to trust someone; I was making life a fiction, or writing”
― Hilton Als, White Girls

“To them he is their sunshine, with me, well; he just leaves me an awkward shade of blue. They”
― Alexandra Elle Smith, Words from a Wanderer