Status Updates From Hole in My Life

eerily relatable—“But now I could do it in six weeks and all for little work and lots of adventurous fun.” Adventurous fun! that's what I'm chasing nowadays and ofc without regard for legality or danger

I tried to fool myself into thinking that smoking was actually doing something, as if the smoke rising from my mouth was evidence of a churning industry that thrived inside me. But smoking wasn’t doing any more than providing a physical activity that masked the emptiness behind it.

“For a long time I had known I wanted to write books, but I didn’t have any help and I didn’t know what I was doing so it took me a while to figure out what I had to write and how to get started…I didn’t have the patience to slow down and see that I had plenty of material to write about in high school. I just didn’t have the confidence and determination to sit still and nurture it properly.”