Status Updates From Hole in My Life

I think this is gonna fly by

eerily relatable—“But now I could do it in six weeks and all for little work and lots of adventurous fun.” Adventurous fun! that's what I'm chasing nowadays and ofc without regard for legality or danger

I tried to fool myself into thinking that smoking was actually doing something, as if the smoke rising from my mouth was evidence of a churning industry that thrived inside me. But smoking wasn’t doing any more than providing a physical activity that masked the emptiness behind it.