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LO LLEVÓ A UNA PISCINA 😭

como le dices que para ti él es tu hogar bro 😭

I don't want to leave them.

Thoughts
The SA that happens in the first book I can now view through a completely different lens of thinking about what Vadim would have experienced as a closeted gay in the 80s in Soviet Russia and that he wouldn't have known how else to channel those desires and while I still really hate Dan I can understand his need to bottom again to see if he actually enjoys it.
The fisting actually made sense I'm shocked.

Me: No way I'm reading the sequels. I don't want to experience those levels of emotional turmoil. Nossir.
Me currently, after finishing the book: 🤡 never say never, dumbass 🤡

But damn, what a way to end a book. If I don't reply, assume I'm still hugging myself in a corner, crying histerically. Either that or downloading the rest of the series.

I have 30 pages left and I'm officially taking a break. I refuse to finish this just yet. The book hangover might just kill me once I'm done 💀

Or the angst this story is currently subjecting me to. Either cause sounds feasible enough.

Can I take a few days long break if I don't want a book to end? Asking for myself a friend. Who might or might not be crying.

(And no, these are not tears. My eyes are just sweating 🙄)

Dan: *probably spends half a day carefully selecting gifts for Vadim that are meaningful and show he cares*
Also Dan: anyway, I am only using him for sex.

You aren't fooling anyone, Dan.

Just started this and I'm already having a great time. Using fisting as a medical treatment for trauma? 👌🤛 Sounds legit!

(I'm frankly shocked at myself for managing to last so long before picking this up)

😭”I’d die for you, Dan. No questions asked.”
“No, Vadim. No.” Dan’s dark eyes were unforgivingly intense. “You must not die for me, not ever. You must live for me, you understand?” His fingertips touched Vadim’s, that were resting on his face. “Give me your word, you will live for me, whatever happens. Even if I never see you again. I need to believe that somewhere, out there, you are alive.”

“You’ll remember me.”
“Always...to my last breath. Last bullet. Last thought.”