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"So I will speak of your eyes although they are closed...perhaps they will say nothing, perhaps they will be dark and leaden, having played their own game somewhere else..."

"...a small hole in my heart, a deaf spot, so that I might hear the unsaid more clearly."

“let me be sick with your heat, let me be feverish and frowning. Now I am utterly given.”

sunshine all the time makes a desert

“The soul that swam the furious water sinks now in flies and the brain flops like a docked fish and the eyes are flat boat decks riding out the pain.”

“how at night she wrote in her leather books that no one came. Surely I remember the hooks of her fingers curled on mine, and forgot us anyhow; visiting the pulp of her kiss, bending to repeat each favor, forcing love to last. Now she is always dead and the leather books are mine…I think I hear it call to me below but no one came no one came.”

Sexton hitting rn.

“And if I tried
to give you something else,
something outside of myself,
you would not know
that the worst of anyone
can be, finally,
an accident of hope.”

“What else is this, this intricate shape of air?
calling me, calling you.”…once at a time moving summers inside my mind.

“And we are magic talking to itself,
noisy and alone. I am queen of all my sins
forgotten. Am I still lost?
Once I was beautiful. Now I am myself”

“You’ll find rain better
Than shelter from the rain.”

“Like a
Wind-blown autumn flower
That never lifts its head
Again.”

“Be like those who act without further thought, almost unaware of their good deeds.”

…adaptable to others' needs, never demanding their constant attendance...

insecurity is the mother of greed, as cruelty is the memory-if only in the blood-of a time when the test of survival was the ability to kill

this is funny so far. not at the gruesome murder parts yet, but the obscene and offensively inflammatory language makes me both uncomfortable and free.