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And then he transforms, his shoulders squaring, his grip flexing, his chin coming up and his gaze boring right into Carter's fucking soul. His voice is even different when he speaks again. It's sir speaking. "Then I suggest you get naked and kneel."

~ WHY ARE WE KNEELING. IM TEH ONE GETTING FLASHBACKS HERE

"Last question. Are you my sweetheart again?"
“Yes.” Goosebumps erupt along his skin, making him shiver. He looks up into Travis’s brown eyes and lets himself whisper, “Please.”

~ I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS, SWEETHEART AS A PETNAME MAKES ME SO SOFT WHEN I READ IT, I'M SO EXCITED

“No more one last time. Let’s give forever a try instead.”
He’s shaking. The big, strong, brave man in front of him is visibly shaking now. “Don’t say that if you don’t mean it. Please, Carter, I can’t.”
“I mean it,” Carter promises. “I still don’t know what this is going to be, but I’m ready to try it. To try… something. To get started, at least.”

~ Gosh they're so everything

Healthy relationships are for losers

“I don’t need him,” Carter says, definitely defensive.
Maison shrugs. “Alright. It’d be okay if you did, though. You might not need him to survive or to be okay, but I think you need him to be happy. And that’s perfectly fine, Carter.”
Vulnerability makes Carter’s throat tight. “You think so?”
“I do.” Maison laughs softly. “And in case you were wondering, I think that man needs you too. Maybe more than you need him.”

Travis can't decide what's more interesting - Nolan's and Carter's surprising friendship, or the way Maison's eyes are glued to Nolan's every move.

~ That's... hmm, I guess I have to let go of the Maison hate cuz Carter forgave him

They talk every Tuesday and Thursday morning when Carter walks 5 minutes to campus for his class, Carter usually mumbling complaints about the cold weather and Travis mumbling complaints about being awake so fucking early. I mean, really Carter, Ace hacked into the entire system and you chose a fucking 8 am?

~ They are disgustingly cute

“So what? You know what’s a waste of fucking time, Carter? What ifs. Would you have found kink on your own if you weren’t kidnapped and trafficked? Maybe, maybe not. Would you have fallen in love with Travis if you met in a different way? Maybe, maybe not. Would we be best friends if we weren’t put through what we were put through together? Maybe, maybe fucking not. It doesn’t matter. Because they all happened.”

He watches Carter be… free.
He leaves without ever letting Carter know he was there.
And he’s back the next night.

~ Him not letting Carter kmow he's there means so much to me I can't even describe it

Scotch bottle in hand, Travis stumbles downstairs and lets himself into Carter's room. The bedding was left behind, since Carter wanted to buy his own for his new place. The scent of them together is still in the sheets. Travis spills a single tear before he falls asleep with his face buried in Carter's pillow.

It's while they're standing in the cereal at Target that Casey blurts, "Oh my god."
Nearly dropping the box of Frosted Flakes in his hand, Carter turns to his friend. "What?"
Casey is grinning, his eyes wide and bright. "We did it. We won."
Just like they promised Elliot all those months ago.
Just like they promised each other.

"And then maybe… we'll find our way back to each other. Maybe you'll choose me. Because that’s what I want, Carter. I want to be your choice. Not because you need me, but because you want me. I want you to look at me one day and decide that out of all your options, it's me."

~ I hate the. They're so tragic <3

Stop I'm crying. Carter finally bonding with Nolan (was in love with NATHAN) over sex and attraction and love is so sweet. Like, Carter getting to talk to someone about loving Travis and having sex with him without judgement is incredible. And carter encouraging and validating Nolan being kinky af is adorable. Solidarity <3 ALSO "I'd never betray one of us, Carter." AHHHHH I'M GLAD THEY'RE SO BONDFUL

Carter napping cuz NOT BENNY UM, JAKE was like "sir would want you to" is breaking my heart. I don't blame Maison here this time, it was an accident but he def should not have been so violent / loud around a survivor. VIOLENT AS IN HIT A WALL / BENCHTOP TO GET CARETR'S ATTENTION TO CLARIFY

Carter locks the door, grabs Travis’s sweatshirt, and crawls into bed. Will this be how it always is? Is he more broken than he thought? Was he wrong thinking he made it out of that compound with enough of himself intact?
Was he right in thinking he’d be better off dead?

~ :(

He doesn’t know why he does it - he doesn’t know what goes through his mind or what about the moment reminds him of before or how his fucked up brain interprets an angry brother as dangerous - but Carter hits his knees and cowers without second thought.
The air goes quiet and heavy.

~ I'm gonna shoot someone

"I'm sorry. I'm just - I wanted to protect you. It fucking killed me not to be able to do anything while you were at that compound, or even before then. Now that we're together, I just want to protect you, baby brother."
"I can protect myself now, Maison." Carter starts to walk away. "You made sure of that."

~ DIABOLICAL, I LOVE IT

Also basically cried when Carter was like "The worst thing that ever happened to me was watching myself slowly lose my humanity and identity, and Maison that was your fault. Travis did the physical, you caused me to lose myself". Like, 10/10 love this trilogy

"You don't get to be pissed about that! If I want Travis to fuck me, then that's my decision. Hell, if I go around the house and offer my ass up to every person here, that's still none of your fucking business. This is my body! It’s my body. You don't get a say in what I do with it. No one does. Not ever again."

~ Beautiful

FUCK YOU MAISON, MAKING TRAVIS LEAVE BEFORE CARTER GETS TO SAY GOODBYE!! BITCH

The mild orgasm denial is diabolical, wdym you won't let him cum rn? I thought we were being nice. Travis, is this your nice?

All of his precious doubts are erased as Travis fuck him hard enough to have his vision blurring around the edges. Carter can definitely still have sex.

~ I love them

The emerging praise kink is so real, Carter I see you. In your shoes I would be the same

Never been so excited for 2 characters to have sex

Wtf that was all the prologue!??! That was so long

Carter finishes eating quickly, then rolls onto his side with his good shoulder. Travis slides in beside him without a word and presses a soft kiss to his bad shoulder. It feels like an apology.
It feels like an I love you.
Carter falls asleep promising himself one last time.
He has no idea that this time, it really is.
...
[Travis is gone to track down Mica]

~ GIRL I WAS ABOUT TO CRY

Some of my last percentage updates might have been a bit off but it's okay

Group therapy going crazy cuz the other survivors are valid to question Travis for treating Carter as he did, then telling him the truth, then them keeping the others in the dark. But also what did they want Travis to do? he was there to act as a horrible fucking person. Idk, its obvi complicated af

Two young men come around the corner at the same time Travis is leaving the kitchen, both familiar faces, one more than the other. It’s Gabe, the slave who was only in the house shortly before the bust, and Nolan. Gabe visibly flinches.
Nolan drops straight to his knees with a gasped, “Master Roarke!”
...
“Don’t touch me! D-don’t. Don’t touch me. They - they promised you can’t touch me anymore.”

~ Holy shit

Wtf is wrong with Maison!?!? He knows is eat Travis up inside to do anything to Carter. And he KNEW Travis fell in love with him way before they told him the truth. This better all be to try get them to leave each other cuz he doesn't see this turning out healthy or I will cut a bitch.