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“This is real. This is my life now.”

“I still love you, but last month broke me and there’s no coming back from it. I’m done trying.”

“Sorry, she told the world silently. I can barely manage to take care of myself right now. Maybe later.”

“I sinned, and I can’t stop sinning, and I don’t know what’s wrong with me.”

“Selena started to roll her eyes at the concept of “weird energy,” then remembered that she’d seen a god in her garden.”

“Tasks can carry you through many hours of a life otherwise too empty to contemplate. And books, the right ones, can nearly make you forget what it is you’re trying to forget in the first place.”

“Its mind was not, in fact, large enough to feel gratitude, but it understood death / not-death. It was not-dead.”

“Depressed implies that at some point you were happy, that there’s an alternate state of being to which you aspire. I’m not sure I’ve experienced that—true, lasting happiness.”

“And let me tell you, he ripples when he shudders, like a fucking vat of vanilla custard riding in a wagon on the Oregon Trail.”

“General, I command you and Chet to sing me..Jingle bells, soft and sweet please.”

“Well Im willing to bet he’d rather fiddle with that guitar than a hot slice of poontang pie”

“And those facts are the doorway to an invisible, intangible world of the unknown, the true meaning of the message is that there is more than spider eyes can see or spider feet can feel, that is where hope lies, for there may yet be salvation hidden within that more, that inspires them to keep looking.”

“How damaged does a man have to be to even CONSIDER sticking his dick into a prison glory hole?”

“The trauma of that horrific moment would never fully fade, there was only so much the shrinks and their pills could do to ease recollections of ruin.”

“Days off were meandering and pointless, I accomplished nothing more significant than completing a few errands, I got high and ate junk food and sat on the back porch with the ravens, and tried to avoid thinking about all the years I wasted on a failed marriage and the steadily growing threat of dying alone.”

“Instead the nanovirus has mutated and mutated in its inbuilt quest to reach an impossible goal, the end that justifies all conceivable means.”

“Sometimes the biggest lie anyone ever tells you is at the alter, when they say, I do.”

“wish the rabbit head had been infested with maggots and he’d bitten into it, tasted blood and rot, as bitter as the disappointment I’ve swallowed for more than half a decade.”

“How could I have done that? What kind of person does that make me? I feel so guilty, so sick to my stomach.”

“Elizabeth would most certainly take him to bed if she were not married. She had even confessed to Father Peterson that, three times in the last month, she had pleasured herself to thoughts of Janson. That had earned her ten Our Fathers and five Hail Mary’s.”

“I just thought he was in shock. But no. He was grieving his own life. He thought there was no other way. So he pulled the trigger before he could talk himself out of it.”

“I’m not friends with assholes.” He lifts a brow. “Good, because I’m not an asshole, so it looks like you misdiagnosed me, Dr. Pearson.”

“At any moment that ass could just hop right off her body and bounce away into the desert night. I imagined cradling that ass in my arms like an infant and putting it at the head of my bed like a pillow.”

“He could feel the dying within the cold, cobalt womb, tell that it was detonating up and upward with his orgasm in a corrupting spiraling plastique-like jizzum through her innards, the ripples of rupture that must turn the deep-blue flesh to purple, then to a black-sheened scarlet, finally to the white of fire on bone.”

“But he perceived a black dharma, separate from the dark and light that were opposite sides of the same coin, exiled from the death and life that were equally cherished manifestations of the same cosmic force.”

“I was raised never to pursue something thats guaranteed to fail, that my mother used to tell me that love is nothing without honesty.”

“The world is a comedy to those who think, a tragedy to those who feel, a feast to those who fuck, and starvation to those who are insane. Look at me: I laugh, I cry, I jerk off, I’m hungry…..”

“A man will always wonder what might have been, but a wise one recognizes fortune when it comes.”

“It was just one more crusty hole. Warm or chill, the difference was only in a few degrees of temperature.”

““And when you open your heart to rewilding a landscape, the truth is, you’re opening your heart to rewilding yourself.”