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“The loss of intensity is accompanied by loss of power and inner balance” is applicable to everything

“I am here to be here, like these rocks and sky and snow” exACTLYYYYY

"La retenue est devenue ma posture" !?!??!?!
*In brittany broski voice* SHUT UUUUUUUUUPPPPPP

If u see me crying while reading this mind your damn business

Poem VII is something i need plastered on my forehead

"To a large extent what held me captive and tortured me was the habit of satisfying with vehement intensity an insatiable sexual desire."
Augustine where have you been all my life

Doing this purely for scientific purposes

There's no going back now

After having reread book 3 so that i could make SURE i savoured every DROP of teddy and gus, all i gotta say is
fuk it we ball
(I downloaded an epub file reader just for this)
LETSGOOOOO

Crazy themes being brought up, like the fear others will abandon you when they discover the less than ideal parts of you. Feeling weirdly interpellée and i didnt expect that here

AHHH IM SO EXCITED TO READ THIS I GIGGLED OUT LOUD

Vision de baddredine goes craazyyy

"Je m'en veux de penser une telle chose, comme si des aveux tardifs pouvaient tout guérir, comme si quelques phrases allaient réparer des années de déni."
Relatable

P. 355 à 358 c du génie

It's like a broken record: ils disent ça depuis des années et ils continueront de dire ça

"alignant à l'infini des noms"

"inexorablement je m'éloignais de mon corps"

"Je me suis efforcé d'inspirer profondément, mais ma pensée s'agitait, se débattait, encore et encore, prisonnière fuyante, mille fois repliée sur elle-même"

"Face à la souffrance et au désespoir, la seule façon de ne pas mourir, c'est d'avoir la foi."

"I suspected that the italian desire for excess and baroque art, for this opulence of beauty, was a mask to conceal, or dostract, to stuff down the nothingness that burned and burned through."
Ok slay
The narrator's perception of the outside is a reflection of HER mindset, which means this logic is also applied to her. It's ironic because she can realize it for material goods, but she can't apply it to herself.

Sentence that made me grunt of pleasure and that i reread 5 times: "It was hard not to be blinded by the light the domes collected and refracted back to you, so heavy with gold it was vulgar."

Isr*el jumpscare mention

"L'attention à la beauté et au plaisir semble se fondre dans le quotidien comme un cachet effervescent." Wow 💚

"She feels pleasurably crushed"??? (in brittany broski's voice) FUCK OOOOFFFFFFFFF

Connell is me and I am him.

"they had seen something magical which dissolved the ordinary social relations between them."
AHHH J'ADORE

Already on page 1 and i got smtg: "to connell this seems like something she could accomplish in the car." Idk why, but i love this sentence. It's interesting stylistically speaking because it describes his mood and way of being without making him say it. We're reading his thoughts only are we really?

C'est bon je pleure.

"morts de tristesse, morts dans les failles de la terre, dans ce cri silencieux du monde fendu en deux"

Perverts de Ethel Cain 🤝 Les Indignes