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driving instructor had me doing loops of the roads near my old secondary school and sixth form, which naturally led to her saying 'oh yeah, someone in your year was arrested for murder'. i vividly remember sitting next to him in ethics class while discussing the trolley problem. even still have my gcse triple science class photo with him in. top five pieces of tsas lore methinks

less than two weeks into summer, and i have already reached the point where the only thing i can bear to do is lay in bed and read. everything about this season is its own special hell and september cannot come soon enough. i do not need a repeat of last august and am frantically beating the threat of it back with my bookshelf

a part of me was worried i wouldn't like this book as much on reread. anyway. having a detailed conversation with alex about how paul says that he kills the butterflies he collects because theyre beautiful, and killing them is the only way he can keep them, and then he beats julian severely because violence is the only way he can express desire. he has to destroy that which he wishes to keep. they were always doomed.

julian fromme should have been in research skills and project design with daryl stump /: maybe then he wouldn't have killed a man

paul being an ecology student makes so much sense to me because my ecology exam also made me contemplate extreme and uncalled for violence. it is a side-effect of the brutality and nihilism that the field inspires. and there should be more environment student representation in dark academia.

oh they are so toxic

four chapters in and i am already finding paul a little too relatable. that probably isn't a good thing.