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He said he was going to shoot the dog

Simply for the dog jumping on me

...

Looking back now, it set a standard

For another dog to bite me, try to kill one of my own dogs?

And another man show 0 empathy for me? Instead a desire to protect his own dog, a fucking animal, when I am a human being?

That man is an enemy

My grandfather would've shot his dog dead if he had been there

I'm thinking of my vendetta against someone

how deeply, deeply offended I feel

The way I was raised?

My grandfather was so soft spoken with me, I was raised with him, lived with him

There was a stray dog, that white German Sheperd

He was simply hyper and jumped on me, excited

That was the first time I heard my grandfather yell, and I was shocked

I'm thinking about Hayden

That can be hard. Developing that kind of self-worth, self-esteem, when your own mother, the person who should have your best interests?

Is the one betraying you in the worst way possible

A friend to all is a friend to none

Meg is really cool, the one I reached out to

and she greeted me, after years, warmly

She's not a loyal friend

Looking back, that was the advice Meg gave me

About the asshole, early on in year 1, semester 1

The asshole had been shit talking me, she didn't tell me that, unbeknownst to me, her boyfriend, DJ was a bro of the asshole

'you need to find someone who cares about you'

implying it wasn't the asshole

It's been a long time since I've been around party culture

After my hand injury? I was 19 or 20, prescribed Vicodin

I was buying adderall illegally

drinking

Taking all of it

Ben talked to me. Told me taking an upper and a downer as well as alcohol was bad for my heart. I needed to stop.

When you care about someone you don't encourage that kind of behavior

There's a TMZ article that Hayden Panetteire's ex was at her apartment when she died

Very, very emotional once emergency services showed up

Murdugh Murders. Men can get away with murder. That husband turned on the waterworks when he called emergency services after he killed his wife

She gave her third child, her third son so much

I always thought he was the favorite

Before she died, she opened up to me about it

She told me know, that she felt extreme guilt as an older adult

That after he was born he was her least favorite, it was the worst time of her life

thoughts she couldn't control, non stop crying

no support

then her in laws were coming over, expecting her to be a host,

I've never had postpartum depression (obviously) but my grandmother had it after her third child

undiagnosed

no support

it changes a woman